figure out who I am

This goal is very general and pretty complex, and probably damn near impossible to accomplish. We all know who we are to some extend, but do any of us know who we REALLY are? I just don’t know. Although, I guess a truly life altering experience will make you ask these questions. I’ve asked myself these questions before, when my life changed some dramatically in the first place, and thought I knew. My new lease on life, and I was so excited. Now I sit here alone, and wonder what should I be doing? Who am I? Why am I where I am, and not where I want to be in life. Why did I make so many bad decisions, and end up here in the first place. What can I do to fix this, and fix the completely lost feeling I feel. I honestly have no clue, but I hope to start figuring things out. I’m tired of feeling so lost and empty. So confused about what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. I got my second chance and I’m so thankful for that, but I feel like I’m wasting it, and I just don’t know how to stop wasting it. That probably makes no sense to anyone, but I just feel so confused about everything. Lost in this life for sure, and not really sure what to do to right all the wrongs. Blah. Life is just so confusing.

i think i am much better at this than i was in my early twenties. i have to find out what i need as a woman now….ugh its hard to grow up for me!

I just got out of a relationship, I’ve always been in relationships. who the hell am I outside of one. Who am I as a single young woman. All I can come up with is I”m a nurse. I must be much more than my career and I need to figure out what else I am what else I want and what I really want to be.

I think I might be A-Sexual, and I’m okay with that.

this is a really helpful thing to know
it stinks that at my age i have absolutely no clue

hi guy it is a tuff task to say who m i because we can’t define everything ourself

Find out what I want in life

Hello old friend… You know that it’s been along time…
but your face is a familure one to me…
its been following me my whole life…
Im not sure if your my blessing…
or if your my curse…
are you my protector…
or were you cast upon me to bring me misery…
I know that when I am happy I rarely hear from you…
Are you hiding in the shaddows awaiting to be there for me…
or do you get lonely and draw me back into the darkness…
My love said it was my darkside that drew her to me…
and the more I forget your face the more her love died for me…
Darkness let us talk and we will walk togeather…
in the shadows and we will draw others to us…
let us not part for the sake walking in the light…
the ones in the light they to are seeking the shade os shadow…
my love will come back… she will be drawn to the darkness…
hello darkness its good to see you again…
I will keep you close so as not to lose site of you…
you will not poision me in my sleep anymore…
and I will be watching you…

When I am awake I wish that I was asleep…
Wishing this were all a nightmare…
Wishing I would wake up next to you…
When I sleep I dream of being with you…
And wishing never to again wake up
And find myself again alone…
You have left my side and in a constant
State of dream and nightmare…
I hope that oneday I can awaken to you
And once again think that it must all be a dream…
Because nothing can be as good as we can be togeather…
Except for a dream…

in the words of the immortal bard joe walsh, “everyody’s so different/i haven’t changed”. the first step to figuring myself out is to recognize that everyone has changed, including me. now my perceptions and my understanding of myself need to catch up. that’s not easy, is it?