be alive

WAKE ME UP

“Suck in the experience and if it hurts, it’s worth it” -forgot where I heard that from.

I want to be ALIVE. all my life, I always been laid back, quite the quiescene, perhaps more likely dead asleep but now I want to wake up, losen up and LIVE.WOO HOO! Now I just need to go on top of a mountain, a city and shout from the bottom of my guts.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH
the end.

Being alive is fantastic… when you are REALLY alive… life is soo music more fun.. and sooo juicy :)

I love being alive! and Feeling Especially alive. I’m usually optimistic and have a good outlook on life. I love to feel free, like making my own decisions, learning, becoming more open minded, doing what I want, not caring what people think. I’m still workin on them.
But there is one thing that I did this winter that Made me feel SOOO ALIVE! Me and some friends smoked some weed, drove to the beach. watched the huge ass waves. walked around and looked at the ice. then I Just wanted to Jump in the water. Why not? I tried to get my friends to do it, but no. So i Stripped down to my undies, ran through the baseball sized floor of ice and dove into the Sea and got smashed by a big wave. It totally took my high away, but it felt So Awesome! I felt So alive. I recommend it, doing somthing strange out of the blue makes me feel alive. percieved risk is usually really higher than actual risk.

incidentally helping others be alive is technically..nevermind

my days come and go. i want to fill them with memories and experiences. i need to stop saying theres always another day because another day is never guaranteed. there is so much i want to do and i lack the motivation to do them. i hate just existing!!!! i want to be alive and take advantage of the days that i am here on this earth!!!

i’m living…better than the alternative \m/(0.o)\m/

in the end its all i fake life is worthless when all you do is watch people die and leave and walk away and then your alone adn have nothing left so screw it id love to say id still be here this time next year but im just not so sure any more