Share life with someone special

Not because I’m lonely.
Not because I want someone in my life.

But because the two times that I’ve been close enough with someone to share very VERY deep things with them, have been the best times of my life.

I want that feeling again.
I want to feel mutual appreciation and adoration.
Mutual wonder and delight.
Unconditional, unquestioned, and unbridled childish love for one another and the love of their respective creations.

I want to wake up next to them after fighting about which D-class celebrity would make the best clone army, right before playing 16-bit video games for hours on end, while we make obscure and obscene late night comedy references, just as we land in Japan to start our careers as globe trotting electro DJs who work as mild-mannered computer programmers and graphic designers by day.

I want to appreciate them,
as they encompass all that I am familiar and comfortable with.
I want them to appreciate me,
as they are the one thing that mystifies, confuses, and inspires me the most.

I just want to share life with someone special.
If that’s not too much to ask.

I see now where and what’s been going on with me…for the past couple yrs, especially the last 6-8 months…things..within me have been changing…I’ve let myself go with what happens…and now I’m seeing where this is all leading…no way on earth did I have any clue..

Finally…the table has turned…but I’ve been called “wierd” too