be crazy

I want to remail my true self!!

Crazy is as crazy does, or something like that…..

i cant decide who i like better. me or me?

i must find the treasure of keresh. GOLD, BEAUTIFUL GOLD. there is treasure in the mountains.

I suppose this is an ongoing kind of goal, but I think i’ve been crazy enough to last me a lifetime. I’ve raced cars at 130+, run from the police, been arrested, ridden dirtbikes, white water rafted, partied days on-end, climbed a mountain, taken random road trips, sailed the ocean, eaten too much wasabi, fought, loved, and so-on. I’ll always be a little crazy, but I don’t think I need to try so hard anymore…

it just lets you be you! no matter how old you are or how your feeling at the moment , going crazy will give you a smile :)

I don’t have to tell you the diagnosis, only that I don’t recommend it.

I AM CRAZY!

Right now i’m sitting here thinking about going to a concert in a couple weeks, and i’m having trouble getting excited about it. It’s called Ozzfest, and for those who aren’t into rock, it’s basically a 10 hour music festival with 25,000 people partying nonstop. I’ve been to it 3 or 4 times, and every time it’s been a f’ing crazy experience. You meet all kinds of cool people, do all kinds of crazy things, and see a bunch of good bands. Not to mention a little too much drinking.

In any case, i have a lot going on right now with work & school, and I just can’t seem to get into it. The worst part is that one of the bands that I love will be breaking up after the Ozzfest tour, so it might be my last time to see them live. Part of the problem is the people who I would be going with, but I could deal with them if I could just get a little more excited about the concert. This is unlike me and it contradicts my goal to be crazy. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I hope this isn’t the direction my life is headed.

Overall I like to think that i’m a pretty responsible person, despite the occasional slip-up. There were a few years there when I was constantly in trouble though. Either school, the police, parents, bill collectors, etc. At 24 i’ve now learned how far to push things, but on occasion it’s still good to let loose. All the trouble I went through in the past has left me cautious though, and it’s getting harder for me to really let loose.

Today however, I totally let go of common sense. I was at work and my boss was bragging about his truck w/ a 496c.i. motor (really big). I was driving a 6 speed Caddy CTS, and he seemed to think his truck was faster. Normally I only race on the track or an empty highway, but we were out in the middle of nowhere so we decided to race when we left. I didn’t think I would go through with it considering the road was so narrow, but when the time came I couldn’t resist. I pulled up beside him, counted, and took off. I ran through the gears like a pro & showed him how it’s done. I’ve never shifted so well in my life. I backed off at around 120mph when I realized I had dusted him. Anyway, I was really happy that some of my former craziness still remains.

Looking forward to the next chance to race the CTS.