overcome my fears

Reading what I wrote for my last entry of this goal, I feel better about my fears toward that & other irrational fears I no longer have.

As for my current fears, I seem to have lost some of my independence. I was just in a long-term relationship, and something during the relationship made me feel awkward about doing things by myself.

I don’t like to leave the house by myself very often, perhaps it’s just a fear of the unknown – but I think I am just more comfortable being out and about when I am with someone else. I feel like whatever I am leaving the house for has more of a purpose if I have company.

I think I need to try doing small things by myself, just little pushes toward finding my independence again. I find that when I go out by myself I get bored easily, even if it’s just a quick trip to the grocery or library.

I’m not entirely sure what the problem is, I just know I’m afraid.

And this is a new issue – I used to be fine. I want my independent life back.

I conquered my fear, got on the plane and took the business trip. We even flew through heavy turbulance and someone on the plane barfed, but I was fine. The trip overall yielded an incredible job offer to relocate to a lovely area, offers to fly all expense around the country in exchange for sharing expertise, and numerous speaking invitations. I am still overwhelmed at the success, and think how I would have missed it had I not been open to going and driven by fear.

I have come to realize that I still have some fears that might be holding me back from things….when I do push through them, I am greatly rewarded and my life is forever changed, but I am realizing I need to be more open to taking some risks. I had hoped my travel would be diminished (I spent 6 yrs doing a lot of travel), and I have yet another golden opportunity to take a 7 hr flight, all expense paid, as a national expert, at a time when most others cannot travel due to economic reasons. My presence there will enhance other people’s work and knowledge. I received such short notice (one week) on this one I am still stunned, yet I should view it as an opportunity, not an inconvenience. This makes me reflect on “fear” in general, and makes me want to try and identify other fears that might be holding me back from fully being me and sharing myself with others.

i have to stop having this fear about being myself, it’s due to a lack of self confidence, i m sure about it, i just found myself , and i should get rid of this fear once for all.
that was my first fear, my second is i fear powerful people, they used to be my teachers and parents , now they are everyone :(
i fear to lose myself
sorry for my broken english

My fears?
I fear looking people in the eye for they might see my pain.
I’m sometimes afraid to be touched lest people notice how tense I am.
I fear intimacy.
How do I change?

One thing to say; Way too many fears that I want to get over!

Cause what kind of moron is made more anxious by a soothing relaxation tape from one of the most highly rated anti-anxiety tape series that their parents spent too much money on?

I wish I could say it wasn’t me.

my fears suck and get in the way. tonight was supposed to be the night of work’s christmas party.

my friend came over, we’d done our hair & makeup, put our dresses and little shoes on and were just about ready to leave… I took one look in the mirror and burst into tears. Needless to say we didn’t go.

It’s now been a year and three months since I last entered a pub, I want to go, I’d love to be able to spend time with my friends in some pub/club for a few drinks but I just can’t do it, I can’t seem to even get myself to go to one that’s been booked for a private do with only people I know being there :(

My friend hopes to get me to one tomorrow… probably not gonna happen.

I’ve focused around pubs but it’s any social environment really.

I have fears. While that’s completely normal, I feel like it’s so weird. I’m mostly afraid of violence, but in ways that would most likely never happen. To give an example, I have a strange fear of being shot while driving, and I think about it nearly every time I’m in a moving car. It’s irrational, the chances of that ever happening are far too low for me to ever worry about or even consider for a moment. Several of my other fears are similar, and I feel as if I should just let go of them for logic’s sake – these fears really aren’t going to become reality.

- the prospect of desertion

- physical pain

- emotional vulnerablity… whew!

I avoid these things like the plague :)