be less depressed

everytime I think that I get somewhere then I just go backwards. Me and my psychologist are really confused. I don’t even know if I care whether I’m depressed or not anymore.

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That, and I’m going to get new glasses. Hooray!

Things have been a lot better lately. I’ve been trying to get out of the house for long walks, and that seems to have made a difference. Work is still stressful, but a lot less so, and I seem to be handling it OK. Let’s hope I manage to keep this up.

i am not depressed anymore. horray.

i think today was a first step in the right direction.

i can’t even describe how i feel.

Thought it was getting better. Been feeling OK for a while, then things started going downhill yesterday, and today’s been just awful. Feels like a combination of the ‘blues’, the ‘mean reds’ and something else I can’t quite put my finger on. I can’t figure out why it’s happened, I can’t figure out how to snap out of it. But I want to, because I don’t like this person very much.

It’s all relative. Everything.

OK, I’m not down all the time. But when I am, it’s difficult to hide, and it’s annoying. It annoys me anyway, and it must make me difficult to be around.
It’s not even as if I have anything to be depressed about. It’s just there.