know myself

Ever since I broke up with my ex-boyfriend I’ve been looking for myself and what belongs with me. I already have learned a lot about myself in the last couple of months of the relationship.

I made the biggest mistake anyone could make in a relationship: I lost myself. Getting into that situation wasn’t overnight and grew slowly over the years, but realizing I lost myself, how I did it and putting a stop to it was. I know now that I do make mistakes, that it’s the most common thing in the world and that it’s nothing to worry about too much.

The most important thing I learned is that I can and have to rely on myself to make things better. Anselmus Grun said ‘Happy is wanting to be the person that you are.’ I am :)

i boy from a normal family.
i tried in no of fields to know that in which field i can get my interest but all was in vain i want to know what i have to do in my life

I’ve felt weird this last four weeks. I’ve had heaps of spare time, but I feel like I haven’t achieved much at all. My goals get shifted from ‘give up’ to my list and back again. I feel indecisive.

I feel like I have no motivation. I don’t know where it went. I feel like i’m watching from the sideline. I feel like no matter how much effort I put into something it won’t be enough, because I don’t feel fully committed to whatever it is i’m trying to achieve.

Maybe it’s Winter.

I feel like I need to get up early, go for a run, rethink what I want to achieve, and then just do it. I need to find my motivation.

I’m learning.

HI..I M HIREN PATEL…AND I AM A COOL PERSON…AND BE HAPPY WITH FRNDS…

I am a child of God. This world is Not my home. My earthy existence is temporally. I am here for a specific reason. I must cut all strings of attachment to this world and fulfill my mission so I can return to my true home where I belong.

I had an interesting dream couple of days ago, that made me believe that I have to do this goal. I wanted to do this for some time but did not take it serious until I seen this dream. I hope I interpreted right, otherwise…..

I’m currently on a gap year between school and university, and I want to use this time to get to know myself even better. I want to know my strengths and weaknesses and be able to acknowledge them, and work with them.

I already know a fair bit, but I would like to learn more. I want to know what I can handle, what I can’t, how I can learn to handle things differently etc.

A few things that have become apparent to me are:
1. I’m a person who needs a lot of sleep. 8 and a 1/2 is ok, but 9 hours is ideal.
2. I need to eat every 3-4 hours. If I don’t I suffer stomach pains. I spoken to a few people about it, and i’m pretty sure I suffer Hyploglycemia.
3. I cry easily. I mean really easily. Some see this as a weakness, but it’s just how I cope with a situation.

I’m still young and I know I will forever be changing, learning, and growing. I had a long term boyfriend and I really lost myself in him, I am not blaming it on him- I did it to myself. After breaking up with him, I really got to know myself better and realized I had much different values and goals in life than I had when I was with him.
I am now with someone new, it isn’t quite as serious but I am scared that I will loose myself again. (I’m working hard not to though.)

1) I don’t like Lemon Samba smoothies
2) I don’t like cheesecake ice cream
3) I don’t like to be ignored
4) I don’t like the rumors about the guy I’m dating having a crush on another girl
5) I don’t like the sunlight
6) I don’t like being interrupted in my naps
7) I don’t like it when people think they know more about literature than me
8) I don’t like it when people try to suck up to me so I’ll praise their crappy poetry
9) I don’t like crappy poetry
10)I don’t like it when people call me weird, because seriously there are more adjectives out there. I don’t get to learn anything about myself if you just say ‘weird’. Weird has too many connotations. And I’m annoyed by that word.
11)I don’t like it when people are too dominative and aggressive with me
12)I don’t like arrogance
13)I don’t like being lied to. The worst thing about meaning everything you say is that you expect everyone else to do the same.
14)I don’t like it when people lead me on and then realize that they don’t even know what they want
15)I don’t like to be in the dark for too long.

that as part of the conditions of an existential relationship is acceptance that you will never truly know the other person nor will you ever truly know yourself, because the concept of self is ever-changing. You can’t win in relationships, but you can lose. the best we all can do is keep trying to accomplish the impossible.

I think coming to this understanding is the closest I will come to completing this goal; i am ok with that.