“We accept the love we think we deserve.” 3 weeks ago

I just watched a TEDTalks on the “power of introverts,” which I found interesting because the speaker emphasized how introverts really need their alone time, for self-reflection, etc. I could not agree more, and after watching the video I don’t feel as lazy/egotistical/weird to want to be alone for a while each day, just.. thinking. Doesn’t mean I don’t like people, but I can’t handle being surrounded by people all the time very well, especially if I don’t know them well. 4 months ago

I took a myers-briggs type personality test and I’m INFJ, the rarest personality type. I found that the description fits me perfectly. It’s crazyyy. And one of my best friends is the personality type said to yield amazing relationships with INFJ, however unusual the 2 seem together at first.
I feel validated.
http://typelogic.com/infj.html 6 months ago

I am kind, creative, passionate, silly, independent, and outdoorsy, but I am also shy, insecure, stubborn, and lazy more often than I’d like to be…
I love animals, films, naps, food, farming, rock climbing, tea, playing piano, painting, doing laundry, roller coasters, fashion, justice, cuddling, airports, and ancient books.
I dislike olives, garden gnomes, gas-guzzling cars, religious fundamentalism, fast food, mullets, and ignorance. 6 months ago

i was running and lying from the reality. I was faking all about me. But i’m tired doing that now. so i want to explore myself and want to know my caliber and potential that i am capable off. No more running just exploring myself without any fear 11 months ago

Anoher realization: I am a person that very much lives in the moment.

I have never really been able to get motivated for things that were/are too far in the future. Working on school now, so I can have a nicer job later? I can’t even imagine myself having a job other than the one I currently have as a cassière. But, I don’t really mind this job; I kinda like it in fact.

Don’t get me wrong: I have ambitions and dreams and goals (heh, plenty of goals!), otherwise I wouldn’t even be here. I just don’t see myself becoming or doing them just yet. I have other things to focus on and to work on before I move on to developing my career.

I still don’t even know in what kind direction I want that career to be! Because I simply can’t picture myself that far in the future. I’m more into just doing my thing, figuring out where my talents and passions are and working on my own projects on my own; without having to deal with annoying project partners I clash with.

And then, at my own pace, although that can be far too slow sometimes, I will eventually get exactly where I want to be. I would like that much better this feeling: like I’m being pushed and forced and thrown into one direction, along with the main stream and the rapids.

Seriously considering to go quitsies on school. 18 months ago

While I was googling for a way to make it easier to get rid of my old stuff, I re-realized something about myself.

I like a million different things varying from dancing to martial arts and skateboarding (and similar ‘extreme sports’); from art in every possible way, to reading philosophical, religious ánd fictional books; from self development, a hunt for world- and inner peace, all the way to wacky senseless projects. None of that is new.

One thing I’ve been wondering about myself, is why I keep jumping from clique to clique. The first years of high school, I was very friendless. In my fourth year, I hung out with the “gamer nerds”. I had to redo that year, so in ‘year four²’ I was more with the “music nerds”. And in my fifth year I hung out with my boyfriend mostly. A skater/stoner. I regret that very much, but that’s a completely different story.

So the thing I re-realized, is that my range of interests is so wide, that I can’t stuff myself into a box with a label. And I love that about me, but then why do I keep trying to define myself with a label? Because I would like to find people like me. People I can relate to and talk to. That’s why I keep jumping from group to group all the time too, I guess. Not finding anyone like me gives me a good feeling. It re-defines me every time and highlights my uniqueness and that of others as well. Still, with my views changing and me learning all the time, it doesn’t really help. My best friend and I are growing apart and I’m having a hard time digesting it.

This doesn’t make any sense anymore. 21 months ago

It’s very easy to get lost in this crowded world, this sometimes personally causes me to feel like I am a nobody. I’ve watched “Eat Pray Love” (the film) almost 5 times now and I’m always left with the same thought in my mind at the end which says “It’s never to late to change”. I think we should have our Eat Pray Love moment in life. We should go out there in the world and get to know ourselves by doing the things we like but also challenge our body and mind by taking risks. I’m tired of life just going past by me, I’m going to make a difference. I’m going to start off by getting to know myself. 21 months ago

I like drinking beer with lunch.

I like to dress eclectically rather than having a well-put-together outfit.

I like my hair a little dirty and messy—or, if I’m just out of the shower, I like it unbrushed.

I like watching documentaries.

I like to read.

I like being outside. 21 months ago

Today I bought the silliest outfit and I plan to wear it on Sunday at the soccer match. It’s been a while since I’ve bought an outfit with the sole intention of looking dumb. I neglected that part of myself for a while and spent too much energy trying to look good. I’m not the hot chick; I’m totally asinine. I like that about myself and I need to remember to embrace it.

I’m pretty excited about looking like a walking American flag on Sunday. 22 months ago

I went clothes shopping a couple of times in the last few days and bought some things that I think I’m really going to look good in. I know it might sound strange, but for a long time I didn’t know how to shop for myself. I didn’t know what I liked, what really looked good on me, and what I would feel good wearing. I was constantly struggling to figure out what looked good, and I’d often buy things that I never wore or hated wearing. Now I think I do know how to shop for myself, and that’s a really nice feeling. I think it says a lot about how comfortable I’ve become in my own skin.

I think I’m going to force myself to get rid of the things I DON’T feel comfortable in—even if they’re cute, expensive, etc. I need to have a closet full of things that really fit who I am. I think that’s an important part of knowing myself and effectively being myself. 22 months ago

” Unless we learn the lesson of self-appreciation and practice it, we shall spend our lives imitating other people and deprecating ourselves.” Aida Overton Walker 22 months ago

I just read an unbelievable book that asserted that the lack of knowledge of the self is many people’s biggest problem and discussed how this lack of understanding can become a platform for much bigger problems.

I buy it, and I want to work on this issue with myself. I tend to define myself through others and it is an often unfulfilling, stressful way to live.

I’m combining a bunch of the items on my list in order to take the long journey towards getting to truly know myself.

I’ll probably approach these in a haphazard way, attacking each one little by little as I see fit. I’d rather have these all as one monster goal because I feel like getting to know myself isn’t something I’ll easily complete—it’s something I’ll need to do a little bit at a time, sometimes dwelling on one idea for much longer than the others.

To get to know myself better, I’m going to:

1. Clarify my values.
2. List (at least) 100 little things that make me happy.
3. Identify the activities and projects I truly enjoy.
4. Define my spirituality and my understanding of/beliefs in the universe’s higher powers.
5. Outline the traits, beliefs, and attitudes I (NOT my loved ones) like about myself.
6. Outline the things I would like to work on about myself (NOT the things I’m afraid my loved ones would like me to change).
7. Re-discover and really know/understand what my “favorites” are—movies, songs, bands, shows, etc.
8. Figure out what my ideal day(s) would be like.
9. Figure out my ideal vacation(s) would be like.
10. Figure out what my ideal home(s) would be like.
11. Notice things about myself—reactions to things, unique thoughts, coping mechanisms, etc.
12. Define happiness.
13. Define unhappiness.
14. Improve my honesty, clarity, and openness so that it is easier for me to know myself and to be known.
15. Regularly take inventory of how I feel about my life and my choices, and work to understand what that says about who I am. 22 months ago

I am supposed to have a big day today and here I am in front of the computer sorting myself out..

I just don’t get it anymore, well to be exact, I am in a situation where i couldn’t breath well. I don’t know what to do or who to get help from. More importantly i don’t seem to find myself anywhere, like When I’m out with my friends, like I always do, I don’t seem to be Comfortable with them anymore. I want to look for myself but I don’t know how and where. 2 years ago