figure it all out

“feeling alone in the universe…”

but… whatever it is—
I feel like I finally figured it out…
I mean, I don’t know exactly what in the world I need to do, but at least right now..after staying up ‘til 2 am.. I figured that…

I just need to be happy.

Last night…

optimism dawned on me

after hiding behind the clouds for ages...

I'm hoping.

I adopt this goal just in case I ever get everything else on this list done. If that were to happen, I would need a new hobby. Einstein spent the second half of his life looking for a universal theory. I think he’s pretty cool. So why not? I’m not all about nihilism. Think big.

Being on the near single side of life again, I would like to make some new friends.

I used to weigh in at 103 which was too light. My normal weight should be around 140. I’m now at 160 and am using Hoodia to lose my weight. So far it’s helped me lose 10 pounds and now I’m working on the other 20. Luckily I’m tall so I carry weight well.

At the age of 40something, she woke to find she wasn’t anywhere near the happy person she was in her youth. What was missing? How could she attain that perfect feeling of sentuality and vim?

That is the question. There is so much dissatisfaction and not enough contentment. What is that any way? Contentment? I think that for some women, it’s finding that flurry of excitement and then reliving it over and over and over. It’s called youth ….......... maybe.

within our financial means & we aren’t a non-profit or educational organization…shrug oh well! it would be nice though!
anyways, i’ve figured out exactly what we want for a house…yes, i know i said i figured it out & WE want it…he’s too easy-going when it comes to this…he’s happy as long as he can have his studio room!
then, i’ve figured out another part, but due to concerns about people spreading rumors i won’t say what it is until the time is right….
i’m on vacation this week & thoroughly enjoying it!!! no getting up at 6, no dealing with a ridiculous commute (whoever decided to do road construction during morning rush hour is a complete moron!), no being out of the house for 12 hours only to come home completely mentally exhausted & nerves all frazzled…i love vacation!!!!

my ideal home is a lighthouse! i’d be so proud to be a lighthouse-keeper!!! what an honorable & noble job it is! i would do it & be soooo very dedicated! i wouldn’t need any vacations because i’d already be at the ocean!
i wonder how much it would cost to buy one…

I know that i can never possibly figure it “ALL” out but i would like to come as close as i can to doing it.

the world doesnt make sense. and im quite scared that it never will. thats why its the world. so i will probably have to wait til i exit this world to “figure it all out” because only in heaven will it all fall together and make sense.

But I know I will never figure it ALL out
If I did that life would be so boring..