overcome my need for approval

i think my need for approval comes from my need for love.If i can let go of my need for love. Then i shouldnt fear peoples dissaproval.Since God loves me!!..Does it really matter if some one doesnt??? i dont think so

i still LIKE approval but i don’t seem to be as needy of it anymore.

_{could be cos i haven’t had to deal with DISapproval for a while}

another 3 subscribers are gone.

i know tbug, bless him, deleted but who were these other two???

3 subscribers in 1 day makes me feel insecure.

pathetic

_{but i have to know WHY??? they don’t like photos of the beach?? i don’t get it}

is the perfect first entry for this new goal…

By Alanis Morrisette:

That I Would Be Good

”That I Would Be Good”

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

I find this to be one of the overarching challenges in my life. I consider myself a very social person, so of course I want people to like me, but I have to understand lots of people will not like me for whatever reason and lots of times it has nothing to do with me. That’s easy enough. But I’ve got this self-improvement obcession thing, so if someone doesn’t like me I wonder if it isn’t something I could change or improve in myself. I can’t change my height, which is unfortunate because it seems like taller guys get more… everything. But I can change aspects of my personality or learn new skills. This is part of growing and living. Fine. But it’s the ugly feeling inside I get. Like I’m just not good enough no matter what I do. Where the hell does that feeling come from? Logically, I know it isn’t true. All-in-all, I think I’m a pretty good guy. Okay looking enough. Not the brightest, but can keep up with most intellectually. Sometimes witty and loud… anyhow. I’m alright. So why do I so often not FEEL alright? Wonder if this will go on for the rest of my life, or if I’ll finally get over it. Guess only time will tell.