Accept and develop my intuitive side

I’ve just started reading Practical Intuition in Love – seems vaguely interesting and useful thus far.

While this, like many of my goals, is a lifelong skill to develop, I’m very happy with where I am with this goal for the moment. I’ve really started getting into my tarot reading and I’m even reading for parties and things like that… I’ve also been cherishing my intuition more and more. I pick up on a lot of things that other people don’t seem to and I’m seeing how this can truly be a gift.

Been working on this… And it seem whenever I go with my gut it always goes right…

had dinner the other night with someone trained in Healing Touch and as a Reiki Master. As we talked about various experiences and techniques, he told me that i had indications of being a “natural intuitive” and an “innate reiki practioner”. this was 1st time meeting this person, and knew nothing of my years of ridding friends of headaches & minor pains. He was working main from basic energy scans & heat/energy in the palms of my hands…

just one of a long line of experiences that keep pointing to Something i’m supposed to doing with healing, tho i havent figured quite what yet…

The other day, I was standing next to a girl I work with and my intuition said, “She’s going to meet someone”. I decided to tell her, since I felt the impulse very strongly. Two days later, she was swept of her feet by a visitor from PA. While they’ve only known eachother for a little while, it seems that my intuition was right! It was a very strange experience…

I maxed out the intuitive scale on the Meyers-Briggs personality inventory. Then I invested time at my spiritual community learning to listen to and trust my intuition. The more I use it, the stronger it gets, and the more it becomes second nature to make decisions this way (when appropriate).

I guess it’s good to be well-rounded and make some decisions based on more concrete evidence… like when buying a car. But actually, even when I did that, I used my left brain to pick the make and model I wanted, and my right brain to pick which exact vehicle was the one for me.

So, I did the foot intuition exercise that I’ve been putting off from that book. It was fairly interesting. Basically, you just let your feet do the walking until you get a feeling in your gut that tells us to stop. Then you have to meditate on why your feet led you to this place.

My feet brought me to an old facade of a building right across from the Hatch Shell. The facade is in ruins, with graffiti sprayed all over it and pieces of cement missing from it. There’s also grass and plants growing all over it.

While some people may find this a disturbing place for your intuition to bring you I, personally, thought it was very inspiring and spoke well of the way that nature takes over where people leave off. The facade looked beautiful because of the vines growing on it and the grass on top of the roof. It was odd and unique. I felt like I was encouraging myself to let go and relax and let nature do the work it needs to to help me be beautiful and unique.

This was a very appropriate message, since I’ve been thinking about my own identity lately and about how Buddhism believes there is no absolute self. Without boring anyone to death, I’ll just say that I’ve been wondering about how an identity would form if you didn’t take stock in it. If I decided that I wouldn’t bother trying to present myself as a certain type of person (which I’ve been toying with the idea of) how would I appear to others? Would I turn into a lazy slob?

But seeing this place gave me my answer. To some, I may appear to be a mess or to be without a place in society (just as the building appears), but to myself and others who really take notice, I will be unique and have something unique to offer. I will grow in unexpected and non-traditional ways.. sounds good to me!

I’ve always had intuitions before big changes in my life and I’ve decided that I want to harness this ability and see what happens.

I started reading ” You Already Know What to Do : Ten Invitations to the Intuitive Life” by Sharon Franquemont. It’s a very good book. The only trouble is that there are a lot of tasks and I’m stuck on one in particular right now because I haven’t had the time to do it. I’m going to get around to it soon, though, because I want to know what’s next! Really, if anyone’s looking to develop their intuitive side, I think this book is a great tool.

We’ll see!

...is that I wouldn’t need to write this! ;P I’m often thick-headed, clueless, and quiet enough to come across as an intuitive and spontaneous…but more often I’m drained or afraid of the “responsibility” of being the originator…the instigator.

Manual things (like programming, art, being expressive in a familiar group) that I’m inundated with doing I just do… and I do it pleasantly. But the more unsafe the social environment, the less I can do that. I like it most when I “cheerlead” others.

(Cross my fingers)