Have the courage to talk to whomever I want

I’ve been talking to people more lately, and today I had a small conversation after which I decided I can mark this goal done.

I guess for me this goal was mostly about talking to guys I find attractive, because they are the ones I’m most nervous about talking to. So today I talked to a very hot guy in my school. I usually get nervous when he just walks into the classroom or I meet him in the corridor (okay, I sound so childish right now, haha), but today I had a good opportunity when we were alone in a place. I’m glad I had the courage to talk to him, but I also wish I would have done it a bit earlier because he was also right behind me in the cafeteria. Then we both ate sitting alone, not far from each other. So if I had just talked to him earlier I might have gotten lunch company.

Oh well, I’m just happy for those few sentences we said yo each other. And I hope I get the chance to talk to him next week at a party we’re going to… ;)

Lately I’ve been saying things to people who go to my school but who I don’t really spend time with. Often I’ve been surprised about what has come out of my mouth, but it’s been a pleasant surprise. I’ve noticed that feeling secure is just a decision you have to make, and that has been so positive!

Yay! Yesterday I went out with my friends again to the same place as last week, and the cute guy from my last summer’s work that I saw then was there again! And now I talked to him! It wasn’t much (just hi, do you remember me, yeah, how are you, what are you doing now, have a nice evening etc.) and it didn’t lead to anything, but at least I had the courage to do it! And it’s not even that hard! I mean, what’s the worst thing that can happen when you go and talk to somebody? Nothing very serious at least… So everybody who want to talk to someone but can’t find the courage: just do it anyway! It’ll feel good afterwards, just because you did it!

Yesterday I really failed at this… I went out to a club with my friends and there I saw this really cute guy who worked at the same place as I last summer. I don’t think he would’ve remembered me (but maybe he would, I don’t know…), but I actually wanted to go and say hi to him and ask him if he remebers me and so on… But then I thought that it would be stupid if he didn’t remember me, and then I’d have nothing else to say and then it would’ve been embarrassing. And he’s a bit older than I am, so he probably thinks I’m just a stupid little girl or something. =S I know that all that is rubbish, it wouldn’t actually have been that embarrassing anyway, and I should be more confident, because I have no reason to feel shy or unimportant…

So, I didn’t go and talk to him. And I regret it a lot now! Hmh! I wish I could go to the club next week and I wish he was there again… Then I’d go and talk to him, if there was a good opportunity! But it’s not really likely that all that will happen. Aargh, why didn’t I just talk to him yesterday?! I’m really mad at myself!

The last few days I’ve been talking to a guy in my class a couple of times! A very cute and smart and nice guy too… =) I hope we’ll start talking more often. And that I will have something interesting to say…