cure my insomnia

Had a long night that turned into an all night. Ended up sleeping round a friends with a load of people that had had ALOT more spleep than me. Now a normal person would be so zonked out they’d fall asleep right there and then which to be honest wasnt the bestest of places to be sleeping and i wasnt surrounded by the bestest of people to be sleeping infront of. But ofcource i was wide awake until past six the next morning when sleep finally hit me.

I have been trying to regulate my sleeping times. But this weekend has mucked everything up and im still recovering. At least the clocks going back helped =]

i cannot actually live like this anymore. i spend the whole day with headaches and moody and i cant concentrate. im hungry, worn out and completly unproductive.

im doin my a levels and its hard enough without the added extra of major fatique coupled with just my brain not working.

=[ its really starting to effect my life and i dont know how to stop it.

So right now its around 5:45 a.m. I’ve had time to finish a t.v series, get half way through another, have a shower and think… just think in the silence, well it’s not so silent now i can hear birds, the suns not even out. They sure are some ‘Early birds’ haha. Cheap pun i know… but i figured being alone in the early morning in a quiet house with no-one to talk to sucks, especially because you are all alone with your thoughts, and all the mistakes you’ve made, all youre regrets, fears for the future, search for meaning… it all catches up with you because after a while you stop trying to go to sleep and there’s just nothing else…. I really just need sleep.

This tapping thing works for me so far.

www.tapping.com

I’ve done this two nights in a row now, and I’m asleep within 20 minutes after doing a tapping pattern. Wow.

I spoke w/ my HR department, and was given the option of bringing in a doctor’s note to adjust my work schedule, to accommodate the days that I’ve not slept. By law, this will protect me from the incessant bitching by two people in my office. Awesomeness.

I’m so pleased i’ve begun with the acupuncture. Only been to two sessions so far but it already feels worthwhile. Couple of days after the 1st session it took me less than an hour to fall asleep and i slept deeply all night. I felt so refreshed and alive the next day. Not just not tired but so full of energy that I managed to to a very long and full-on day at work without any problems and without feeling overwhelmed, negative etc etc … No big deal, no big drama … just did it all and went home.
I felt so happy i nearly cried! I was so shocked at just how much my insomnia was affecting every part of my psyche and my life – you don’t realise it when you just put up with not sleeping much day after day, month after month and year after year!...

Anyway, acupuncture is not a quick fix … and a couple of days later my normal patterns returned but i’ve had another session since then and I’m hoping continued treatment will help sort this out …next session is a week tomorrow … here’s hoping …

I just want to sleep.

Gotta love those Irish, though.
This is pure genius.

http://www.embryo.ie/glo/index.html

Really gotta deal with this … In fact I think it may be the starting point to sorting myself & my life out.
Its affecting everything … seriously affecting my routine, my working life, my eating habits, making me depressed … and that’s causing a whole host of other problems.

Been going on for so long now (over 3 years) that I accept it as part of how I am but that’s not helping …

Life’s so crap when it takes you 4 /5 /6 hours to fall asleep … only to be shocked into consciousness by a blaring alarm …what seems like … 5mins later!

Tried so many things … nothing’s worked for long so far.
Thinking of acupuncture … but as usual prcrastinating because its expensive and i have this current irrational fear / lack of confidence in doing anything at the moment. I know its crap … but its there.

Gotta book an acupuncture appointment – it’ll be a small but hopefully positive step in the right direction.