have money

The sad part is, I find myself giddy and happy when I buy new things.
I’m so incredibly tired of being poor.

I’m so tired of being poor. At the moment I’m going through an even rougher time than usual, because I lost my job and the end of my lease is almost here. I really really don’t want to be homeless in Arizona in the summer. And this sort of panic happens every single time I need to get a new apartment, because with my income, I have nothing left over after bills to put into savings toward a new apartment. And without money, aside from the lack of food and housing, I can’t really do much for fun. I end up stuck sitting at home in front of my computer all the time. I wish I had enough to not worry about where I’m going to live two months from now, and go to the movies with my friends without being a burden on them.

i actually have money, but i cant bring myslef to spend it, because i never have it so iits like this special thing when i do

This side still sucks and i have no idea what to do about it or where to start. though one of my fornightly payments of $120 will finish next pay day and then i get a table for the dining room…

So i have been trying to work more hours at work for example am doing 5 extra on my day off tomorrow and have been doing 10 hour shifts.

There is a load of stuff i would like, and then i live with my sister and she is always wanting stuff and she gets soo crabby if i dont do something about it.

Hmm i need something that earns alot of money but i dont wanna be a hooker or pole dancer which would earn alot of money.

I’m not talking win the lottery or be a millionaire. Its just I always feel skint! I would like to just have a couple of 100 in the bank, some in my purse, even be able to lend some to my friends without being put out. Be able to pay the bills and not be broke. Be able to socialise and not worry that I can’t spend too much because I have to put money towards blah blah blah. I can’t even say the problem will be solved by saving cause you need to have a level of disposable income to be able to save in the first place.

even notice that the less money you have, the more people want it from you, and the more you seem to need it? all i want is to have enough in my acct that i could put all my bills on autopay, and not worry about being overdrafted because there wasn’t enough cash in there… that’s why i want to have money: so i can free myself from the constant worry of bills and debt. it can really bring a person down, ya know? :(

OMG! I love money so much but can’t seem to get any.I only have like $50 to my name.Boy do I need to get a job.

My only affection to money is that it allows you to do things easier. If i didnt hve to worry about money, and having it, I could do the things I want to do like educate myself, travel, help others, oh there are so many things. I would use my money to help myself better myself so i could better others. thats about the size of it.

meh