Not feel so Alone, because im NOT alone

I feel like this constantly, I feel like I have nobody when i do. I guess i just feel like those people don t care. But nevertheless, i want to try stop this feeling

This is a lot easier said than done. I mean I strongly believe that everyone has to feel alone at some point. It’s like the whole being sad makes being happier even better. But I would like to reduce the frequency of my alone-feeling-ness. I know I have plenty people who care about me, and that my not appreciating that at all times is kind of selfish, but it’s hard.

While at times I DO feel alone, in recent weeks more and more of my friends have shown me that i’m not…

some of which have just been kind enough to talk to me about things.

but one in particular proved without a doubt that he understands exactly how i feel.

i think i’m comfortable with saying that i’ve accomplished this now. I know that i’ll find myself feeling lonely from time to time still, but that’s just human nature. I think that unless it becomes really bad and I spend all of my time dwelling on my loneliness again, i’ve reached this goal.

with the help of a few people. they know who they are.

It’s hard not to feel alone when the people around around you cant see through your eyes. Some of my friends are easy to talk to and are extremely helpful, but honeslty, how could they know? They aren’t me. All they can really do is try to reassure me of things.

But therein lies the catch… A person like myself needs constant reassurance, and I’m not willing to lose friends because I’m needy. So I just suck it up until I can’t hold it in anymore… I unload, hear some kind words, and I’m better for the moment.

It’s a big loop though… I’ll be back at the begining soon.
I just hope my words don’t fall on deaf ears the next time around.

My cousin actually just wrote a blog about how he feels depressed all the time. I wasnt happy because he was sad, I was merely comforted by the fact that we see things similarly. Especially because it was him.

I dont know when the Depression hit, but I know I cant remember when I didnt have it. I always feel empty, and alone..which is weird to feel when you arent i guess.
I have a loving Fiance whom I live with..and he makes me feel special and happy..but when im alone and he is away at work..i get the sense that im really alone and empty..
I dont know how to change this, and ive tried many times to change this feeling..but nothing ever helps me.