Stay out of trouble!!

In a matter of 1 1/2 years I got 2 DUI’s. BAD!!! My last one was almost 2 years ago so I think I’m on the road to straightening out my ways and behaving better. I’m not partying and drinking so much and I’ve definitely learned to be more responsible about everything. I’m by no means done with this yet, but I think I’m on a good road.

I turn bad when i am around certain ppl and a certain place. Im not there (Los Angeles) at the moment. Im trying something new (North Carolina). ITs been 2 months and im bored out my mind. Maybe its bc i cant find nothin to get into. IDK but i’ll be 18 next month and will be moving bacc bacc to cali cali. But i dont want to be the same person i was b4 when i was there i want to do something productive with my life instead of living like a rockstar.

MY entire life has been as follows: progress in life,do almost everything right, make one mistake,everything falls apart. i just want five solid years of good,no bad for five years..yeah i know that is too much to ask but damn it sucks to get so far and then have to start all over because of one thing,one stupid thing

hehehehe… trouble is a relative term :P

I mean this, with both exclamation points.

lovin you!

heh!

good Lou doesnt get into trouble. Good Lou controls my mind – logic and common sense. Bad lou causes trouble. Bad Lou is in control of my heart, my emotions. i feel like im innately bad and being good is so hard. bad Lou is very influential. very persuasive. and very dangerous. everybody loves bad Lou. shes cool and fun. evryone except Lou. Lou hates her bad self because of the way it makes her feel and because Bad lou gets into trouble. Nobody likes good Lou. Nobody. i get nothing out of being good Lou. except names like nutcase and freak and wierdo. which is where i was 10 years ago and thats why ive been bad Lou for ages.
round and round it goes in a big crazy circle.
i dont expect anyone to help or comment. i just need to feel like im getting this off of my chest.