be the best person i can be

because I don’t even know if I want to be a person anymore. I know your thinking “WTH?” but I’m so over life. I haven’t seen anything positive in my life for years now… and definitely don’t see anything in the future changing that anytime soon. I really do feel hopeless and that a lot of times if I didn’t exist anymore life would be incredibly easier for so many more people. As I am typing this I have began to cry because I truly feel me not being around anymore would really be THAT much easier on a lot of people. I feel a burden to everyone as well as myself.

My goal is to be the best not only in one or two things, but be a better person and give up all the things that wasn´t good for me.

11 months ago I posted this. 5 months ago I stopped trying. 5 days ago, I became aware of the consequences.

Why does it seem so hard to maintain all the things it takes to be good, all the time?

In any case, I’m back on the horse.

Sometimes I feel I am not very nice (as nice as I could be)...no, really! I want to be nicer to everyone including myself, be less self centered and be a better listener when others talk…actually hear what they are saying and be completely there! I want to take time to listen and appreciate the other person. This is going to be an ongoing process and I am open to any realistic/good advice! I hope to treat others well…like each person I meet/interact with is the most important/worthy person I will ever meet and hope that I receive the same treatment/reaction in response! Wish me luck!

- Quit smoking

- Go out for drinking exept business situations or my friend’s special requests

- Be a very early morning person

- not use negative impressions

1) Schedule yourself at least 10 minutes each day to think about what you love
2) Spend most of your time doing or planning to do what you love
3) Brainstorm and write a list of things you love – let your imagination run wild
4) Choose 5 you must complete in the next year – what is important right now?
5) Think about how it will feel to achieve these things you love
6) Write down one action you can take to achieve each of these goals
7) Take that action within the next 24 hours and plan your next step
8) Learn to say no to things that don’t contribute to you achieving your goals
9) Write a list of all the excuses you have for not doing the things you want to do
10) Laugh at all of the excuses you have made and move on

Be good to others and to myself

1. Practice a Random Act of Kindness Every Day
2. Be a more patient person
3. Do not gossip or say anything about anyone that I wouldn’t say to their face.
4. Stand up for myself

I don’t want to cuss…be mean…I want to be a good person..no lying…no cheating…be honestfully true…I want to be good…

I also am tried of worring about what the other person thinks. I want to focus more on family and our lifes. Thing would just be great if I achieve this goal. I seem to find it’s easier said than done. You feel you are on the right path, then something else is added to the mix! I know I will reach my GOAL!