to stop procrastinating

Procratination…bad very bad.

i’m not sure what it is about me. every so often i find myself needing to do something, and for some ungodly reason, i just cant bring myself to do it. its like i can sit there, and want to do it, i know i need to do it, but i just cant. theres no reason for this. other than either pure lazyness, or pure stupidity.

another part of me feels that maybe i do this as a form of self pinishment, like i cant allow everything to go too smoothly. its like i get to a stage where i can almost say, “life is good” but that one little hurdle is my way of holding myself back. it sucks. i need to just learn to suck it up, and get it done. and stop holding myself back.

I’m starting to stop procrastinating. So, I’m adding this to ‘my giving up list.’ I haven’t accomplished this yet, but I think I will, and when I do, I probably won’t be on 43things much. And I’ll tell you what’s causing my lack of procrastination in another post.

I tell myself to stop procrastinating, but there is a force making me procrastinate. If I were in the Marines I would be motivated to do things because I would want to shine. That is how I should be now. I want to be successful.