be single for a while

I want to stay single for at least 7 months. Then I will try to find somebody.

i had been looking for a girlfriend for a long time around 2 years or something like that an i eventually got one, its was all right at the start couple of weeks in a started to want to be single, i think i have got so used to single life that i just find it hard to get it into my head that i was in a relationship, didnt help that we had started going out after like a week or so but :/

anyway im single again, and i feel comfortable again i know im not hurting any1 when im flirting with girls an im free again.

i do sometimes miss the feelings and all the other benifits you get from being in a relationship but i think i would miss the benifits of single life more.

I’m so scared of being alone that I stay in relationships that I’m not actually happy in… then there was my most recent relationship… he was perfect..it was perfect, only i was so scared of ever losing him that while… i pushed him away!!!

so yeah i realised i cant b single till i am secure in myself!

and if someone as amazing as my ex could love me so much…there’s gotta b something worth loving!!

so here’s to stayin single for da 1st time since i started dating at 17!!!

and here’s tofalling in love… with myself!

I enjoy being single. It’s not like this goal will be hard to fill anyways. haha!

although…

i went on a date two days ago.
my 2nd date in my entire life.
my 1st date was when i was a freshman in college and WHAT a disaster

so i was nervous.
ridiculously, obnoxiously nervous
but i looked cute and i gave it to the universe after a conversation with my parents

“okay universe, here we go. not that you care too much about a silly date when you have all these huge fucking global issues to attend to, but stay with me, alright? i’m giving him an hour…just an hour. that’s polite right? stay with me.”

i gave him 4 hours. all of it conversation about travelling, ambitions, music (lots and lots of music, oh my god), mayan prophecy (that was me) and future plans

AND he’s cute
AND he’s a musician
AND he has a love affair with london which i see as strangely edgy and sexy

and he kissed me :)
lightly, with promise of patience and more to come should things go well

6 months was a good break, a nice vacation
i think i’m ready to jump into the dating pool and go for a nice, long swing

I want to stay away from relationships that suck your energy, and would rather be single, happy and content.

missed him today

shouldn’t have

meh.

it’s been quite some years since i’ve been single…5 or 6? maybe more?

the thought of being alone kept me from leaving several relationships that ended up being unhealthy for me…i recently grew some chachkies and did what needed to be done…

life has been exhilerating in the past 2 weeks…yeah…only two weeks…i haven’t been with anyone but my friends and myself…i must say, i think i’m getting to know myself after all these years :) hi, me!

nothing like being able to walk into a joint and see the whole place as your oyster, or at least as post-coital puddles. can get irritating after a while, though, as feel pressure to maintain goddess-like physique and 24-hour sexy feline bedroom eyes, but, at the same time, you’re always in control, which is fairly nice, unless you are so drunk you decide you need to walk to krispy kreme at 4 in the morning; after that, you think “hey, maybe i should get a boyfriend, after all, at least he could’ve driven me here.”