make people smile when they see me coming

All it takes is enormous quantities of rice, some Louise Hay & Dr. Russianoff daily, de-negativizing, & having some fixed plans!! (like going to visit a friend with a cool ‘Zero Waste’ little gift!!)

Oh, & changing my walking routines to include more interesting places… ;)

And my red fleece cap saying ‘Wild By Nature’ (in which I look like one of Santa’s elves, honestly!)

I found I’m greeting people on the way & smiling, & they smile back with such AMAZING smiles… YAY!!

Kids & dogs approach me… So I am loved by kids & dogs, at least. ;)

I think I’m angry with the adults, for not making this world a better place to live, environmentally… Maybe I frown when I think of them and all the garbage they make… Can’t think of a way around that, at the time…

Does this make sense?

I used to be the person who smiled at everyone, to the point that (some) people thought it weird (& some were utterly charmed).

I could smile in a perfect way – people have complimented me on my smiles, & said I smile like my sister (who, when she smiles, has a perfect smile). I knew I smiled perfectly because the smiles were reflected from people’s faces. And the smiles were beautiful. Occasionally.

Sometimes I just don’t have the energy in me anymore to give them ‘perfect smiles’, I am so angry inside for a number of things…

& I fear they would start questioning me, ‘What do you do? Where do you earn your living? How much do you earn? When will you get married? When will you finally settle down & get ‘serious’? (Or at least earn money for your living)’

I am a dreamer, a poet, a singstress & songwriter…
I want to dream up a better world, but all everyone keeps asking me about is the money on my bank account. Who f… cares??!!

What will all the money in the world help if I have no fresh air to breathe? If noone has…

Kids are better. They adore you if you have a good imagination, know their needs, take a walk with them when they are bored, & show them the wanders of the world. Even if they are silly.
If you hug them and squeeze them & make the world swirl when you spin them around. And tell them they are wonderful. As they are.
Dogs don’t fuss much too.

So it’s easy to smile at kids & dogs, & make them smile. & get them to smile…

Now let’s see about everyone else…

I actually used to have that already, & want to do it again!

I was happy, on my way, focused, determined… making my dremas come true.. living the DREAM…

I want to be that person again!

Fun to be with, having fun… Believing everything will be allright & having faith & the Universe… & myself.

I feel I have become too cynical, too bitter… & while I still can laugh & have fun, it is not as sincere & honest & silly & carefree as it used to be… I want some of that innocence & silliness back…

I Think Ive Done This Already… Because People See My Sad Face And Smile To Chear Me Up… Does That Count??

Being the reason for a smile is probably the most gratifying feeling. Ever.