Well, I have been going strong for a total of 2 whole weeks and true to my usual form I feel ready to give up. Went to the city today to check out an exibition and cannot even begin to describe how fat and daggy and out of place I felt. I feel so embarrassed to be in my skin. Shit, why do I feel so bad about myself. I am trying with all of my might to perservere and keep eating ok and exercising as i know if I go back to my old habits I will only feel a hundred times worse. I will try to go to a yoga class or cardio boxing class this week to add some variety to my exercise. All I want is to be able to look in the mirror and not think I look completely ugly. 5 years ago
Woo hoo, three days have passed and I have had only a mint pattie to satisfy my cravings. I want chocolate and coke sooooo badly but have managed to keep my cravings at bay. I went for a walk this afternoon. Only 40 mins but this is better than increasing my dent in couch. 6 years ago
Where do I start to change 20 years of bad habits. I eat to the point of needing to have a lie down because I feel so sick. Why is it that when I actually exercise, I feel fantastic but motivating myself to do it is a completely different story….How do I turn the switch on to change those habits 6 years ago
It seems like i woke up this morning, looked at myself and said ‘How on earth did you get like this’. I’m tired all of the time, I hate looking at myself in the mirror and cannot stand having my picture taken. I’ve gotten to the stage where I don’t even want my partner of 3 years to see me naked!!! I know this has been a long time coming but it honestly feels like I woke up today in a fatter body. Oh and I don’t think i can ever kill these shitty sugar cravings that make me want to drive to the petrol station at 10 oclock at night. Will it just keep getting worse until I’m the size of a whale. Motivation is nil and will power is worse. 6 years ago
