not be intimidated by other women

i think this has a lot to do with why i have such image issues. i am always comparing myself to other females. i even do it when it comes to becoming friends with females. i dont think i could be really good friends with a female who was tall, thin, with perfect boobs and a perfect ass and who was smart and talented. there’s no way. and it shouldnt be like that. it makes me feel shallow. cuz it is shallow. i would like to get over it.

according to the site, it’s been a year since my first post. a lot has changed since then. i look better, i’m getting married, and i’ve over come my biggest hurdle with this goal. i’m no longer freaked out by gwen, my fiance’s best friend. for me it’s just been a matter of realizing i have him and he’s chosen to spend the rest of his life with me. i still get on him about the skanky girls he sometimes talks to, but i’m hoping to break him of certain people’s toxic clouds. i control the leash around his collar, and it’s time to tighten the grip. these girls need to know that they aren’t going to disrespect me by throwing themselves at my fiance. they already don’t like me…what’s a little enforcing going to change?

i’m doing better, but i’ve noticed that every time i have a bad feeling about a woman it ends up being justified. so what am i supposed to do, forget about my intuition and just give everyone the benefit of the doubt even though i’m generally right? i’m just afriad that other people won’t see it the same was as i do. at least i don’t assume every woman is better than me anymore. they’re just up to sneaky shit.