be more spiritual

I am way to dependent on things. I wish i was a buddist or a monk so i could find happiness in the smallest of things.

This used to be one of the things that I always thought I would get around to when I had time, but now as stress levels are rising it’s becoming more of a necessity. To be able to find some kind of faith and some meaning for what we go through has to make the trials just that little bit more bearable.

It’s funny how people become increasingly spiritual whenever something bad happens in their lives. They ask for God’s help whenever they are in need. Although I strongly dislike it when people do this, I find myself in that situation now. I’m going through a tough time, and I turn to God to solve my situation and somehow make it better. I try to talk with God and ask him for guidance when everything is going swimmingly, but I don’t do it as much as I should. I wonder if God is annoyed that so many more people turn to him when they are in trouble, rather than for spiritual enlightenment when everything is going well.

I am managing to bring Wicca more into my life. i actually feel excited about this and spirituality again, which is great! :D

So my Ipod broke the other day, which at first was awful because I didn’t have anything to listen to when walking between classes. But I’ve noticed that I now use that time to meditate and talk with God, which in turn relaxes me for class. It’s weird how no matter how bad your life is, a simple talk with God can make you realize that everyone will be ok.

I’ve been trying to incorporate my faith into my daily life and it has been going well so far. Whenever I’m walking to class, instead of listening to my Ipod, I pray or just talk to God. I’ve also tried to going to church more. I do feel better about my life and feel more connected to God. I think these small changes are making a big difference.

I’m thinking about this now in terms of an actual goal to work towards, as opposed to the idle mantra it’s been for a while, and the question that keeps floating around my head is, “what is being spiritual?” When I say I want to be a more spiritual person, what do I actually mean? What do I want? What is it to be spiritual? I don’t even know. All I’ve had so far is a peaceful feeling in my heart when I think of it, the feeling that my soul is telling me to follow that path, but it’s very vague. I know what I want my life to be and I know that being in touch with the deeper side of existence is vital to that, but, for example, I can’t even think of another word for ‘spiritual’. As a writer, I reckon, if I can only think of one word to describe something, I don’t really know what I’m talking about.

So, I guess my first step is to work out…what? What I want from spirituality? How I want to use it? Should I read first? Get ideas and philosophies before I think about how to fit them into my life? I didn’t realise I had so many questions, actually. I’ll google it.

I’ve always been asked questions about my faith. I usually know the answer but never why. I’m going to start attending a Bible study and hopefully that will help me become closer with God.

i would like to research the potential power of stones and crystals, also i would like to look at some of the more specific aspects of chakras.

I read this quote that reminded me that I should not be strongly influenced by other people’s views and beliefs as they may not help. Instead I should focus on my belief in eternal things, which can help me develop inner wisdom.

... stand alone and isolated, because nothing that is embodied, nothing that is conscious of seperation, nothing that is out of the Eternal, can aid you