visualize

...a nice evening on the beach with C, watching the sunset and then looking at the stars. :)

Yesterday I went to a fantastic candy store. Typically I’ll buy myself a quarter pound of chocolate covered coffee beans, but I’d gotten some a month or so ago and instead had an intense craving for chocolate covered almonds. Having never purchased chocolate covered almonds, I wasn’t entirely sure whether this place even had them.

But I did have a picture in my mind of a mound of them in their clear plastic bin.

So I entered the fabulous candy store, admired the giant chocolate waterfall, wandered to the plastic bins…and lo and behold…milk chocolate covered almonds. A few feet away, dark chocolate covered almonds. Wonderful! So I was quite pleased. :)

P.S. Tomorrow I’m going to visualize an EXCELLENT day at work! Hehe…

Visualizing definitely works. Small example: it helped before I moved to visualize what I wanted each part of my new digs to look like. That way when I got overwhelmed I could go back to that “dream image” and start again. It was also helpful to finish a project and go back and see that it turned out exactly how I’d describe it before I moved.

Big example: prior to moving I had worked a Monday-Friday, 9-5, daily grind type of job. Actually 9:30-6, but you get the picture. It had its pros and cons, but I really liked the whole M-F, set hours type of thing. (My previous job as a youth ministry director was extremely fluid and would have a few 20 hour weeks, a few 70 hour weeks, one or two 24/7 weeks (trips and things), and it was 6 days/week plus being “on call” all day and night. It was my favorite job, but still.)

So what I wanted, and what I thought about it my head (though didn’t purposely visualize, really) was a M-F job with set hours, that paid decently, maybe more than I made at the last place, where I’d have built-in time off maybe, like some 3-day weekends.

And what happened? I work M-F, about 7:45-3, I make $3 more an hour than the last place, and since it’s a high school I have all major holidays off, fall break, Christmas break, Easter break, etc. No Spring Break unfortunately, but that’s alright.

So why don’t I do this more?! Maybe I should visualize a bank statement saying $10,000 or a nice young man who isn’t a psychotic bastard like the last one… :)

I wasn’t consciously visualising, but at lunch-time today, I had an epiphany and it became clear where I should be going and how I should be getting there.

Since this goal is not measurable, it’s leaving my list. However, I don’t regret having it here, it’s been most useful.

Not going so well.

Need to keep the vision while distractions are going on around me.

This, for me, is about being who I want to be.

I used to be a calm, easy-going, confident person. A bad experience with a bad town and bad job knocked that severely leading to three months signed off with stress.

Since that time, I have been slowly growing back into what I once was. It occurred to me last night that in order to be what I want to be, I should visualize each night what I want to be and follow through next day.

We’ll see how it works…