stop cutting myself

i was cuttin myself and then i started getting the better part of life…i cant help that my life turned around since then…i am a 14year old and my parents arent cool anymore…they dont understand about me at all….i am not like the rest of my family, i take things alot easier than most until all the stress builds up and i reach my breaking point….i have been cuttting again after about 6months of not doing it…i really want to stop but there is a lot on my mind at all times….i aint sure how to stop or what to do…then my mother found out and she was disapointed in me so much..

i failed… i cut myself, but i’m not giving up. i cut not too long ago (no i dont mean a few minutes ago) so i scares are faded a little… my friends at my church havent really said anything about them.. and only one of my friends knows that i have cut, and they dont want me to cut anymore, but i cant get it out of my head…cause i feel like crap all the time. I need soemthing to get my mind off of everything, i think i should start reading the books i have. there are SOOOOO many problems going on now! we have girls, lonlyness, hatred, sadness, unworthyness, feeling like there is nothing that is for us. we need to speak out! say what is on our minds! the Bible says God will humble us one way or another… so if that means gettin imbaressed SO WHAT! it’s gonna happen some time… we need to speak out. now that i have cut that is what i’m gonna be forever.. a cutter. but oh well! and on the off note… for those who read this that hate cutters.. please note i am a Christian too… and Jesus said “if you hate my people you hate Me”. so just remember… you’re hatein on Jesus… the Son of God… the maker of ALL things… including…. that’s right……you know what i’m gonna say next… YOU!!! so dont be hateing! (sorry if i misspelled i am half asleep right now)

I’ve been cutting for five years and i really wanna stop. The longest I’ve ever gone is 2 months and that’s cuz i got caught. I just don’t wanna do it anymore and i hope i can stop and finally get my life back.

like i said i was cut free for 11 months then a few days ago i screwed that up! i just could not take anymore, the car crash, my mom, school, everything. now i have my friend scared shitless and my fav teacher having me check in everyday, even saturdays and sundays. i dont wanna cut anymore but i just dont know what to do anymore!!!

I have started cutting less than a week ago. I’ve cut a pop can tabby thingy in half and used the sharp ends. So far i’ve told two people…Sarah(my best friend) and Brad. They both have been praying for me. I want out. I don’t want to kill myself. Four years ago my two older sisters abandonded me. I found out in June i was a mistake child, and i hate myself. I can’t even talk to Sarah and Brad because the closest one is 25 mins away. I want out. i want out. so far four cuts for the years i have lost my sisters. probably going to cut later.

I NEED HELP but if i told my mom she’d send me to some funny farm. Egggggggghhhhhhh

i…..want…...out

my sister just got a pack of razors
and she is cutting herslef
yes the one who said it was gross
it temping and i just cutt my arm with a knife
help?

i havent thought of cutting in a while…but there is still things there that try and drive me to it, im sick of the thoughts, im gonna kick the devil in the FACE cause he is UNDER MY FEET! im gonna say “get the crap off of me, you have no part in my life!” i am gonna praise the Lord and NOT give the devil any satisfaction, because he doesn’t control me! like one of my favorite songs by Red says “you, can’t, have, me, ANY, MORE!” (for thoes who want to know the song is let go by Red it is awesome i love that band the are Christian rock)

again… its been awhile.. n i thought i was done… but idk… the 1 person that i thought would always b there 4 me… ijdfk… im soo confused… im freaking.. im bleeding.. im dead inside… it doesnt hurt nemore… i had 1 feeling left and it died. i am a bad person… ijdk….please can you help… i wanna stop this, but i dont know how….......

I haven’t started cutting yet, and i hope not to ever start… i read to stop cutting a good way is to wear a rubber band on your rist and to pop it evertime you feel the urge to cut… i have way too many things in my life, my “dad” seems like satan himself, i look at porn, there are nights i come home from church or youth or youth band practice and somehow my “dad” says something and next thing i know i have my music on and i am crying my eyes out, out of anger!!! and i feel the urge to cut myself for that, but i know i need God to help me with this and everything else going on in my life…

still cutting.. ugh! well not my arms or wrist this time… but my ringers actually 3 of them… idk how im typing!! well s that so called succes?