be a ballerina

I’m on my way! I’m in my local production of the Nutcracker. Yeah I’m only a lowly extra (awesome white and gold reindeer!), but I start pointe in January so we’ll see if it get something better next time.

I took a pointe class on flat and I got yelled at the entire time. I’m 20, my bad turn out and weird hips are not going to change, I know this! But she is convinced I’m just lazy.. maybe Miss Heidi’s yelling will scare them into cooperation and my dreams of ballet stardom will come true. :-/.

I’m not a ballet dancer, my turnout is too bad, but I’ve always wanted to be in a ballet, a real ballet, not the nutcracker put on by a random dance school. I’ve got a long way to go having just started ballet in December, but I’m already pretty good (well in comparison to the 11 year olds in my class). If there is a ballet company out there that will take me I will pretty much faint.

this happy little girl got to go to ballerina class this week.
for the first time in a month.
it was kind of painful.
but i was glad to be back.

I will always love ballet, and will take another class someday. I could use the practice in gracefulness. For now I must make room for some immediate goals.

Ever since around the fifth grade i’ve wanted to be a ballerina; so cultured, so elegant, so beautiful… After all that time, i’ve finally gotten up the courage to tell my mother I want to start ballet, now in the 1oth grade. She supports me, however hesitant of my ‘sticking to it’.
I am in marching band however, and hold up at 12lb. instrument for around 4 hours a day three days a week plus sectionals, so i’m thinking I definatley have the arm strength. As for my legs i’ve been working on it, stretching and such for a while. I’m calling tomorrow and enrolling in the next beginning class.
I’m 15 years old, 120 lbs. exactly, and 5’6, I think that’s alright for a ballinera? I mean, i’m hoping so?
I’m more than willing to learn, and hopefully i’ll be able to find a class willing to support me and a teacher willing to teach me.
:] wish me luck.

HEy guys guess what dieting sucks. I started to be ana starting in october, and was eating some days like 500 cals. Guess what fucking happened. I stress fractured my ankle, and the doctor says it was from lack of nutrition and me being under weight! BS! I was so angry. I want to be thin, but I really dont want to get injured again. I also pulled a muscle while excerzizing today. I was on the Elliptical machine, and burned 550 cals in 45 minutes. I guess too much, so I pulled some thing it hurt so bad. Im not on a diet now, just eating healthy, but I mean I cant diet or excerzize w/o my body protesting!!! I still am gonna excerzize just eat healthy food, w no junk. I lost 2 pounds so I think im doing OK! I just dont want to have to gain it back, cause I cant work out!!!!! I learned my lesson being ana for a couple monthes. I stopped about a month ago when I stress fractured my ankle. Deplete your body of nutrients, and you will pay the price. Maybe if you dont do ballet super seriously like me, you will be lucky and not hurt yourself but if you are than you could end up injured like me. I think being a ballerina sucks sometimes, because you cant starve or else you feel dizzy and weak in class, and cant do well. You need energy to be in class, but you need to be not just thin (which I am), but SUPER thin to raise to the top. I neeeeeed to be super thin. So Im gonna continue working out, and eating very healthy, and hopefully I can lose some pounds!!

Does anyone have any pointers? Like, ya kno, things I should do to be fit? I’m 92 pounds right now and I really wanna get down to 85 so my thighs are a little thinner! Other than that? What should I do? I’ve also been tryin to learn a little more about ballet by myself. Basically, I just need tips! If you have any I would love em! <33

ok I ate not so good. I had all healthy food, but a lot of healthy food=a lot of cals. I was barely hungry. Not a good sign. Towarrow Ill have 500 cals
b-bowl of cheerios and half grapefruit
l-chicken noodle soup and a banana
d-wheat thins with penut butter and some strawberries

yesterday I did 0k
b=smoothy
l=a couple cucumbers and some wheat thins
D=a california roll and miso soup
is that 500? cals or less

i did not so good yesterday, but Im doing fine now.
Yesterday
b=a cup of diet hot chocolate and a 100 calorie balence bar
l=nothing
d=2 pankakes with butter and syrup 800 cals about Blah how Awful!!!!!!!!!!!I feel fat Today Im not going to pig Promise!!!

Im only gonna have
b= nothing
l=small banana
d= salad OR a small bit of soup
300 CALS ABOUTSTAY STRONG AND KEEP FIGHTING