have confidence

Hah I was going to at first say I’m sorry if this sounds cocky and then I realized that is not confident.

So here it goes: and with no apologies.

I’m beautiful, I’m smart, I really care about people, I love babies, I eat desert and not scraps of salads like some girls hehe, I am good at taking pictures, I have nice big boobies, I am fairly well off, My family is amazing, I have some amazing positive beautiful people in my life, random people seek me out sometimes and feel comfortable enough to put effort to me.

Why did I do that whole paragraph?
Because I really think the only thing missing from me is Confidence. And even though I have so much and lack that one thing, I genuinly feel its preventing me from living the youth and life that I could potentially have.

I have no confidence. It’s like schitzophrenia(And I in no way want to disrespect that terrible illness I am just making an example) I feel as though my mind talks to me. Bad things “That was awkward of you” “she doesnt like you” “They dont think you are cool enough” “He was bored by you”

and I WANT THAT TO SHUT OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFff

I want to enjoy these years, oh how i want to be happy. I need to be confident is all.
ANY TIPS would be so appreciated
sigh.

Ive never ever had confidence in myself.
Since i was younger and still…
I put myself down, i see EVERYTHING as something i cant do. instead of what i can do.
Everybody knows, everybody tells me to have confidence in myself because im talented. but i cant! just because u tell me i need to have conifidence, doesnt mean “oh ok, i will then.” .. “my bad”
like everything i do, i think its crap or its shit. i cant just say “wow, i love it”..
even a clairvoyant i went to picked it up. GR.
and i want to have confidence i hate being like this.
Help!

I’d say that I’ve made a complete turn around.
Living alone, I have to have confidence in everything I do.
Being single also helps.
I’ve put myself out there, and it doesn’t scare the hell outta me.
I credit this change in the fact that I’ve had pretty decent luck so far, as far as gaining the attention of those I want.

i have made a lot of progress,
which surprises me.
i think confidence and worrying nearly go hand in hand in most situations.
i’m confident in what i believe.
in what i know, and who i am.
and im confident people like me more for that.

one year ago,
i was terrified to answer the phone at work,
not anymore.
i was terrified to talk to strangers, go through drive thru fast food, and pay for my purchases. i’ve taken major steps in the right direction.
stop second guessing.

I use to hate the way I look but im starting to like it (kinda)

Okay, I figured out when I think this goal is done^^
It is when I look into the mirror and I am able to say to myself that I like what I see, and mean it!
Because, when I can be confident about how I look, I can deal with anything and anyone.

All I have to do is breath, look within, and calm myself, so that my mind doesn’t play tricks. I am not stupid anymore.

I haven’t really ever done what I’ve wanted to do…

I’ve always done what’s expected of me, and even though I can still carry out ‘duty’, I can still be happy.

I need to do more things in order to improve my confidence instead of letting other people rule me. I am deferring coming home to England (it’s a lot to do with my partner), but I’m not allowing anyone to dictate to me about where I should be, doing whatever.

It’s me figuring my life out.

I think I’m doing good at this.
I’m starting to care less what people think of me.
It’s just because I’m only around people who really know me, and with them, it’s less scary to be just me, and be weird.
Because that’s what I am, weird.^^ and I’m proud of it!

But I can’t have total confidence when I’m at the streat, or with many other people, though. I still have to work on that..

And I also have to think about when this goal is done… Because I still don’t know that.

I think that the first thing you need to ask yourself is: what is confidence?
Is it when you just don’t give a shit what people think or say about you?
Is it when you dare to give your opinion?
Or is it when you’re not afraid to speek in public?

When it is all of this, I think I’m far away from home…
I do care what people think of me…
I wish I could have the nerve to do what I want, and just don’t care what everyone else would say… That would be nice…