control my own happiness

I’m going to mark this as done.
I don’t feel nothing anymore.
I feel happy, mad, sad, agrrivated, upset, annoyed, excited, everything, anything.
Alot of days are relaxed, some days are really great. It just depends. And really it’s all up to me and what I do with life. How much effort I put into school, who I hang out with, and how much effort I put into being social, how much I put into work.

i want to control my senses

Well, my meds got fixed around April/May. But I still wasn’t all that happy. I mean, I didn’t feel depressed or anything. I just felt, more of nothing. Just kinda existing. I don’t know.
I got my permit the other day, started a job.

I’m still feeling the same kinda of just existing type of thing. Maybe when school starts, and I have more contact with people. My therapists says I shouldn’t be in the house so much, she has a point..

It feels kinda hard to do.
I don’t really feel like I have control of my moods beacuse my meds aren’t set.
I may be 16, but I have no liscense, let alone permit. Or job.
Ughh.
I’m working on it though.

Kinda a tough one.
Especially for me considering how this year started.
But, I’m pretty sure I can do it, and I’m well equipped with the skills to do it now.