Be in the moment

in the heat of the very stressful tantrum of a 3 year old. It worked today. Breathing…I’m making progress.

took this goal off thinking it was redundant with staying in touch with my inner peace.

It might be, but it occured to me that I am super stressed about the chaos that is my life right now. I very much need to focus on this goal as it is written.

house is a mess, no sleep, want to improve the house the business, need a car, etc….

I’ve got to remind myself to be. Still strive obviously but relax a bit.

Things tend to fall into place more easily when I/we go with the flow.

on the brightest spots.

(an affirmation)

today. I am taking it slow…going with my mood…not stressed, just a bit sad and thoughtful…I think something good will come of this. I’m thinking about how to beautify the house/childcare and grow my business…how to balance home and business in the same space…sitting in the sun rocking baby, watching boys play…letting the house be a mess right now, energy isn’t right for cleaning…gotta go with it sometimes, make peace with it.

The sky is bright blue and cloudless, the temperature is perfect…

for 15-40 mintues many times each day to nurse is boring, frustrating and makes it difficult to do my job.

It’s also a very good time to reflect and just be…

The suns shining through my window. Its been raining all day, and now its like the world is smiling again. Im present in it. Feeling the warmnt, taking delight in the new found light eminating throughout my room. I feel i am apart of that light now. Im inspired. Not to run 1000 miles but to be apart of it. Apart of it all. Whatever iy may been. To be in it, and breath.
Stillness, Joy.. is a choice. I think the secret most people forget is that, their possiblity is always present, looming around like a colourful mist that is more visible when we look up and out.
I feel everything and nothing in this moment, I am here.
This goal, can be achieved in an instant, and forgotten in a second. Its beauty lies in its futility. I think. Mabye.

Yesterday I let the phone ring for a couple of hours. My husband was frustrated with me as I owed my inlaws a phone call. I explained that I was nursing the baby and I wanted to be with the baby uninterrupted as I don’t think it’s a good idea to constantly be multitasking while nursing. He said something like that is a myth and that in real life you need to do more than one thing at one time. I was so happy that I have chosen not to fall into that myth. That time with my baby couldn’t be more precious and I want to get as much of it in as possible before in a blink he’s grown up.

every moment of our lives is filled with richness and magic and worthy of being savored. If our ability to exist purely in the moment is lost and the joys immediately in front of us are overshadowed by thoughts of the past and worry about future then we must reestablish our connection to the present in order to discover and appreciate what is beautiful about this unique moment in time, discover the abundance that life is presenting, as well as realizing that there is a purpose to everything that happens. By living in the present – also called “mindfulness” – we can realize that we are not our thoughts, but rather observers of our thoughts moment to moment, neither grasping or pushing them away. This builds our trust, and supports us in being willing to be more open to really experience life as it unfolds. Cultivating this nonjudgmental awareness of present has been proven by science to reduce stress, boost immune function, reduce chronic pain and reduce the risk of many illnesses. Especially when overwhelmed from our hectic, complex lives, staying present means immersing yourself fully in every experience, whether positive or negative. As you learn to embrace the present in an all-encompassing way, you will come to realize that life’s magnificence is a product of its moments.
from: www.illuminartecollection.com

It looks like a blizzard out there! Yesterday I bid my students a happy holiday season and New Year. Today I can sit back and watch the snow ;)

On the cusp of giving birth to a brand new little person I think this is the most important gift I can give him. I have moved this to be my number one priority. I know the housecleaning will be hard for me not to stress about but I really want to focus on the baby, regardless of the messsy house.