make my mum happy

a couple of years ago my mum broke up with dad and moved in with her boss and of course we went with her (me and my 2 sisters). To start of with every thing was fine and then he started to act like an old man who always needs a smoke in his hand, any way he started picking fights with me sis and it made mum really upset and he still does it! and i dont know how to make her feel happy! shes always sad and doesnt smile any more! if u have any info as to what i should do please tell me.

My Mum is a teacher in a primary school..she has been a teacher for more than 20 years..she is strict but not cruel_{~aha!she can easily get angry for one little thingit’s her nature..I think she is a lovely Mum..^{^so my big big job is to calm her down when the storm came out and make her happy then..haha}Mum~!
I played the piano for my Mum when she’s unhappy..but not too often..!(^)
I let my Mum alone instead of talking to her all the time when she’s upset but then I will try every effort to make her smile..
If my Mum have trouble with my Dad..I always stand on my Mum’s side..haha}~
I want to be equipped with knowledge and find my place in the life and work..I will grow up happily and healthily..!(>.<)
and I believe I will be able to give my parents happiness!

I’m marking this done. It’s a work in progress of course. I do my best and Christmas wasn’t a total disaster.

Today my bro should be 20.

Mum’s Dad is in hospital slowly fading away.

I hope this can be a good Christmas.

I can’t do this.

Oh I can be happy and Mum can be happy because I’m happy. But there’s that space. There’s that brother shaped space that won’t ever be filled any more.

It’s a long time since I cried like this for him. I rarely do it and I’m always alone when I do. In fact the only time I cried for him in front of my boyfriend at the time he told me I should “get over it already because it’s so long ago”.

GODDAMMIT! I know it was a long time ago. I know I wasn’t even 4 when I saw my mother find him dead in the pram and try to save him. I remember it. neither he nor anybody else can take that away from me however much I wish it wasn’t true.

There are things I remember that arent in any photo.

He should be 20 4 days before Christmas this year.

She was really happy when i brought her the present, i know it’s not the thing makes my mum happy, but my love—-and i really feel pride of her,she is the greatest person in my life.

I doubt my mum have ever been happy.All the days she went through was so tough, few women could handle that.I’ll soon be home with u, mum.

i hate myself

how the fuck can i do this wen she’s so sarcastic and provoking and horrid to me

my mum has had a difficult life and all i ever seem to do is make it worse. i wish that i was different so that i could make her happy but i cant do everything. i cant change. but i am going to be more understanding from now on, and try and see things from her perspective. i’ve made her cry too many times and i want to make up for it. i always called her a bitch but actually i’m the bitch.
so i’m going to stop it. and try and help her change her life for the better.