remember I always have a choice about how I respond to experiences in my life

Sometimes I get down about things in life and I really let these things get to me. I am trying really hard to give things a try, no matter what the outcome, in order to get me out of this downward slope! I am choosing to look at each experience in a positive light and turn evey experience around. In retrospect, I want to be able to look at every experience and say “hey, I made that negative experience a positive one.” Slowly, but surely. Maybe one day I’ll reach that point. Right now, its just one day at a time.

Ok, I am at a point where I need to deal with a situation, and don’t know how to get over it. The short story is, I had been called by a person I had worked for in the past and told that a position within the company would be opening up soon, and he wanted me for the job. Basically promised to hire me. So I applied for the job and so far haven’t been called back for a 2nd interview. At the first interview, he basically backtracked on his promise, saying there were a lot more applicants than he thought there would be.

The announcement for who got the job will be Friday, so there are still a few days for me to wait and see, but I am anxious, worried and sad that I might have somehow screwed up a sure thing. My stomach aches and I am jittery and can’t concentrate on anything else. I am getting very worked up over something that may or may not happen. And if I don’t get the job, I will be so mad. But again, I have a few days to wait and see, so how do I stop obsessing over it?

This is becoming especially important right now, as I am trying to work through an issue with jealousy and insecurity. I react to a lot of situations with a jealous response very quickly, only to realize, after I have done some damage with my words, that I really have nothing to be jealous over. I need to remember that I can respond in a rational way, despite whatever insecurities I am feeling, and then deal with whatever is making me jealous.