find and marry the love of my life

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‘Saw this pc on PostSecret last week…and it truly sums up how i feel anymore.

It’s not that i dont think i’m worthwhile, or dont have lots to give to a relationship….but i’ve lost faith that there really is anyone out there for me.

It just seems like this kind of thing has passed me by….in particular, in the past 2 yrs, i’ve had 3 friends who either rarely dated, or were recently divorced. They each had the attitude of “i’ll never find anyone…”. However, BAM!, in the past year theyve all found a perfect match for them…after very little effort.

And i recently got back in touch with a couple who i played “matchmaker” for in 1985….the guy was an ex-boyfriend, the girl my roommate at the time. I played “the 3rd wheel” for some 5-6 mos till they got to know each other, and started dating.

We’ve been out of touch for some years when i heard from them again this fall…theyve been happily married for 19 yrs now, and have 2 great kids.
The kind of life i wanted for myself….

With me, however,,,i’d been pretty gung-ho with internet dating, blind date dating, for about 2 yrs. And there was not one person i met that i had any sparks with. Nice guys, decent guys…just not “my kind of guy”.

i’d almost like to check this off as a “i give up on this goal”,,,,except that wouldnt be honest, I’ll never truly give up. I just no longer have any faith it ever will…

i really want to find the love of my life…sometimes i think i will never find him…sometimes i think it’s unreal and fairy-tale like, but i always tell myself that God has a plan for me…

I am confused, in dilemma and wndering if I will ba able to do justice to my love life.I GOT TO DO IT.

I AM SINGLE IN NEDD OF ANYTHING SO IF UR THE PERSON WHO CAN HELP ME GET BACK ASAP

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because i still believe he’s out there, somewhere…

1. he loves me for who i am
2. he knows i love him for all that he is
3. he knows how to talk with me
4. he shares his secrets with me
5. he makes me laugh
6. he laughs at my jokes, usually… :)
7. he loves to read
8. he is wonderfully creative
9. we can talk all night, or just be
10. he has a deeply spiritual perspective of life
11. he is a wonderfully tender and yet adventureous lover, and we have great sex AND make mahvelous love together
12. he is open to trying new things, whether different food, movies he’s never heard of, experiences & travel
13. he loves me in spite of, or because of, my flaws
14. he loves being a father, and encourages our children to be themselves, yet gives them solid boundaries to securely grow up in
15. he’s neither a boring MBA workaholic, nor a flaky pagan/druid reeking of patchoui…He can appreciate the value and mysteries of the occult realms, but still care about paying bills, putting money in the bank, being responsible about his obligations
16. He has long time friends who’ve known him since “way back when..”, but is open to meeting new people, and making new friends
17. he LOVES getting into the spirit of Halloween: dressing up, planning inventive costumes together, seeing the neighborhood kids come by in their outfits, & having ‘pumpkin carving contests’
18. he acknowledges how tough my life has been, and is proud how i’ve perserveered thru it all…

I’m eighteen, and I think about this one a lot. Since I was 12 I have been obsessing over this guy or that, and now I realize that the right man will come around, and that this is not something I need worry about. I’ve met a lot of great guys and a lot of bad ones, and I will get hurt again, but I refuse to get hurt over the same things again.

Recently I met this guy that changed my whole perspective. I realized that conversing is really the key. The guy thats right for you treats you like you’re perfect for them. And you can just be with him, and not worry about a thing.

That guy comes around every once in a while. Its sad but I wish I had met him a few years down the road. He lives an hour and a half away and I’m still getting my life together. If it’s meant to be it will be, but it probably won’t be, right?

I hope it works out between us someday, but if it doesn’t it’s fine, because love is not a one time deal. It does not discriminate in who it touches, and you do not love just once.

I will be glad to have him as a close friend, and I’m happy that he is in my life. But we shall we… and I am hopeful. :D

“Kissing is a means of getting two people so close together that they can’t see anything wrong with each other.”
- Ren Yasenek

or if they do see flaws, they still want to kiss on each other anyways…

:D

...and why i choose marriage over remaining single

Why is it that people get married ?

Because we need a witness to our lives

There’s a billion people on the planet.
What does any one life really mean ?

But in a marriage, you’re promising to care about everything…..

The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things, All of it…..all the time, every day.

You’re saying “Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it.

“Your life will not go unwitnessed, because I will be your witness.”

—Susan Sarandon, in the movie, “Shall We Dance?” 2004

_{(paraphased from:
For most people, a life lived alone, with passing strangers or passing lovers, is incoherent and ultimately unbearable. Someone must be there to know what we have done for those we love. —Frank Pittman)}