find and marry the love of my life

i really want to find the love of my life…sometimes i think i will never find him…sometimes i think it’s unreal and fairy-tale like, but i always tell myself that God has a plan for me…

I am confused, in dilemma and wndering if I will ba able to do justice to my love life.I GOT TO DO IT.

I AM SINGLE IN NEDD OF ANYTHING SO IF UR THE PERSON WHO CAN HELP ME GET BACK ASAP

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because i still believe he’s out there, somewhere…

1. he loves me for who i am
2. he knows i love him for all that he is
3. he knows how to talk with me
4. he shares his secrets with me
5. he makes me laugh
6. he laughs at my jokes, usually… :)
7. he loves to read
8. he is wonderfully creative
9. we can talk all night, or just be
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I’m eighteen, and I think about this one a lot. Since I was 12 I have been obsessing over this guy or that, and now I realize that the right man will come around, and that this is not something I need worry about. I’ve met a lot of great guys and a lot of bad ones, and I will get hurt again, but I refuse to get hurt over the same things again.

Recently I met this guy that changed my whole perspective. I realized that conversing is really the key. The guy thats right for you treats you like you’re perfect for them. And you can just be with him, and not worry about a thing.

That guy comes around every once in a while. Its sad but I wish I had met him a few years down the road. He lives an hour and a half away and I’m still getting my life together. If it’s meant to be it will be, but it probably won’t be, right?

I hope it works out between us someday, but if it doesn’t it’s fine, because love is not a one time deal. It does not discriminate in who it touches, and you do not love just once.

I will be glad to have him as a close friend, and I’m happy that he is in my life. But we shall we… and I am hopeful. :D

“Kissing is a means of getting two people so close together that they can’t see anything wrong with each other.”
- Ren Yasenek

or if they do see flaws, they still want to kiss on each other anyways…

:D

...and why i choose marriage over remaining single

Why is it that people get married ?

Because we need a witness to our lives

There’s a billion people on the planet.
What does any one life really mean ?

But in a marriage, you’re promising to care about everything…..

The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things, All of it…..all the time, every day.

You’re saying “Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it.

“Your life will not go unwitnessed, because I will be your witness.”

—Susan Sarandon, in the movie, “Shall We Dance?” 2004

_{(paraphased from:
For most people, a life lived alone, with passing strangers or passing lovers, is incoherent and ultimately unbearable. Someone must be there to know what we have done for those we love. —Frank Pittman)}

I’m not sure about the future, but finding and marrying the love of my life is at least a good beginning. i don’t know who the one is but this one must be somewhere looking for me too. but..how can i find u?

....2006 was a pitiful year for me, romance-wise. I went on about 4 blind dates, and absolutely no spark with anyone i met. Whereas my friend C., in only 8 mos of online dating, has dated @ 6 people, some rather promising, seeing each several times or so…. With me, zilch.

I have absolutely no one in any vincinity of my life that i have any interest in. I have no one in my past that i have any “ghosts” or unresolved blocks about. There is nothing to hold me back, except that i never meet any of “my kind of guy”.

i dont what more i can do to positively manifest this goal. I’m honestly stumped as to why i cant make this happen in my life…

People will say “wait”; well, i’m about to be 45yrs old, and turned down about 5 possible marriages over my dating years,,,,so i feel i have waited, plenty. People will say “it’ll happen when youre not looking for it”. Well, i havent “looked” for anything, especially since the last entry, 8 months ago…only continued with my various social events. And still, nothing.

if there’s some way that i’m keeping this from happening, i wish i could figure out how & why & change it

i also wish i could delete the previous entry (i would have, but there’s some nice comments attached) The lyrics were inspired by the re-emergence of someone from my romantic past….from 9 years ago. Someone i seriously thought about a marriage with at the time. What ended our relationship was long-distance: we lived in different cities. I wasnt willing to instantly move, & wanted to wait at least a year…but he didnt want to continue a long distance relationship. I heard he got married about 2 yrs after we parted. Then 9 months ago, in one of those synchronistic, fluke of fates that are typical of my life, i found out he was divorced,,,,and had moved back to this city. How i found out was that his “Online Dating Profile” was sent to me as a “Match”. Nice that the universe is sending out emails to let me know when old loves have moved back to town-!

Anyways, he knows i’m still here, & i’m single, and has chosen not to get in touch with me. It did give me a jolt at the time, but has since just proven that we werent meant to be together anyway.

Thus. Or hence. Or anyways. Or at any rate. That is how it goes for me. Or doesnt, it would seem. I’m tired of waiting. I’m twenty-five years into waiting for the time to be right and for myself to be ready. The time is now right and i Am ready. I want my life’s partner, and i want to begin the next part of my life. Now.