make a list of things i loved about me five years ago and try to get them back

Do i really have to have something to do every minute?
No, i liked Alex´ attitude: what are you going to do tomorrow? Lie in front of the tent, smoke.. listen to music..
BTW: My make-up skills have improved- a lot!
Going to chill now :-)

.. would be my better make-up skills. That did look better before!

Hi Samantha- i really liked your thing and i want to do it too!
Five years ago i just had invented myself new- i was free and happy and didn´t care about grown up stuff.. i really don´t, now too, but- something has changed..
what i don´t want, though, is to have this life back (yes, i thought about it..) just the good things- this would be nr. one, stop caring about minor stuff!
EDIT: i thought about 5 things.. because of the 5 years.

i’m workin’ on this one…but i find that i love my eyes again!

i knew what i wanted out of life and i put everything on the back burner for him. i wanted to go to school to be a high school english teacher. but we met after i graduated high school and i haven’t taken a class since. i would really like to at least sign up for an internet class or a correspondence course to ease myself back in to the school scene. me and natalie might take a creative writing class together or something too. i miss when i thought i could do or be anything i wanted. i need to get back my ambition and drive to get out there and get what i want.

you used to be able to look in my eyes and know what i was thinking or feeling. i think i’ve lost some of that…i feel like i just look so tired now. maybe it’s not as bad as i think it is, but i know it’s not as good as it used to be!