decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

I am definitely ready to start pursuing something that I can see myself doing for a few years and be happy with. I have graduated college and worked as a ski instructor for 3 winters, on and off. I just turned 25 and would like to get a job that I believe in and don’t feel is wasting time. I don’t even know what wasting time is and when I’m doing it. I’m either going to get a job or goto grad school, but I can’t even decide between med school and grad school. I recently discovered that I’ve been focusing the last 6 years of my life to having fun and am realizing that simply having fun and not working hard is not fulfilling. Just trying to figure out what to do from here on. This site helps a little, seems like I’m not the only one.

Or maybe I will live in a shack on the beach and make seashell windchimes for a living.

i don’t know.
senior in college.
and i have absolutely no idea.

It’s a long story but I’m getting better now. I’m still not working full time – but hoping to get back to what I knew and loved or I could…
Get into TV or film industry
Spend more time developing my cosmetics and nutriton business so it becomes larger.
Work towards become a professional photographer
Get a part time job doing something that involves meeting people and and enjoy being wife, mum, granny and a lady wot lunches.

Onyl thing im certain about is that im not certain about what i want to do….. just finished my education, and moving out of the system, its now my turn to decided what to do. Problem is im kind of stuck at the deciding bit.

1.) Business

• it’s a secure job market and will probably always be
• but it’s fecking boring!! can’t stand “customer service” and brown nosing

2.) Marine Botany

• possibly the most perfect job in the world! have been wanting to do botany for a long time now but the thought of so much land-living positively depraved me, but MARINE botany?! lordy, lordy, bring me my smellin’ salts!

3.) Creative Writing

• hands down it’s what I’ve wanted to do since I was first published at 8 years old
• but I’m afraid turning what I love into work will only make me despise it
• plus it’s not all the secure. I’d still do it, of course, but not for the paycheck.

4.) Literature

• love it
• but not a very big job market except for teaching
• would go hand in hand if I decided on creative writing

5.) Artic Biology

• oh, just so many pros!

Maybe “the rest of my life” is a tad broad. After all, I’m only 23. But it’s best to just humor myself, especially when I’m stuck at such crossroads as this.

I’m enrolled in an online university right now. My major: business. Talk about yawn-fest, I don’t even know why I did that. I thought maybe I’d open a tea shop in a Victorian house with couches and books and a beautiful garden to sit in. And I’d serve lovely and exotic teas and tarts and cucumber sandwiches and Travelers’ Magazine would dub me “a gem in a hidden oasis”. Or maybe I’d open a spice mill.

I’m not so certain.

More thoughts: I want to be a sailor, I want to study Arctic biology or marine botany, I want to study literature and creative writing. Why must we decide now, in our twenties? Because time changes so much, and you can’t rely you’d be interested in the same things twenty years from now.

Most of all, I just want adventure. Raw adventure in the heat of passion, not something lame like sky diving. It’s too safe. I crave risk.

i want to live my life outside of the box….. but do that, I just need to go with the flow, make God my leader and just follow the path that I’m paving. :)

...where I might belong. I think this one will be on my list for a long time, but I guess I’m okay with that. It’s a worthy question to keep asking from time to time.

There are so many things I want to accomplish, but as someone once said (I wish I could remember where I found this!)” try not to focus on what you want to do for the rest of my life but simply [...]focus on what you want to do first.”

I’ve spent the better part of today (in truth, at least 5-6 years) reallly debating with myself what it is I want in a job in order for me to consider it a fulfilling career. I haven’t finished hammering everything out, but what I do have makes me very, very happy :)

“Just keep swimmin…” – You’ll get there soon enough. :)