decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

I already have some ideas in mind. 1 day ago

Someday, I want to live in a blue house. Or an apartment/condo where I can paint all the walls blue.

There are so many nice places that I’ve been thinking about and would love to live in. Canada (although I’ve only ever been to Vancouver), Costa Rica, Scotland…although Colorado is lovely as well :)

I’m planning on majoring in biomedical engineering in college, though I’ve also considered being a firefighter (the secret possibility that I haven’t shared with my parents just yet). Though they usually accept my aspirations, this one’s a little…out there.

I have plenty of time (including the seemingly-endless three more month of high school) to think. We’ll see. 1 week ago

Maybe this goal is at the heart of my problems and my inability to commit to anything. Maybe if tomorrow I set out some really specific ideas as to what I want to achieve then I can start to visualise those ideas. That in turn might help me get closer to achieving them as I’ll know roughly which direction to head in. 1 week ago

I’m starting to realize that a lot of what went wrong for me in the last 5 years has to do with the fact that I focused not on what I was good at but on what I thought I could be good at. Don’t get me wrong, I feel the liberal arts are a worthy field and they are important for the world we live in, but my skills are sharpened for the more concrete fields of applied science, law, medicine or accounting. I am analytical and like my human ancestors, am skilled at using tools. Some of us are more creative in their approach; I however, can do an amazing job with the tools that I have, using them in the proper sequence to solve the problems of life. But when faced with unsolvable problems, or unclear and murky outcome, I feel inadequate.

Therefore, i think the first step for me to decide what it is I want to do with the rest of my life probably starts with the realization that it will probably have to be concrete and tangible, a skill, trade or profession I can learn, apply and master. It feels good knowing that much. In time, perhaps I’ll figure out what that is. 1 week ago

I was in two minds as WHAT I WANT TO ! But, this is final… 4 weeks ago

- Start another band, get as far as we can with it (Ideally become relatively famous, but I won’t get my hopes up)
- Become a civil engineer (Preferably with a Masters but I’ll settle for a Bachelors if needs be)
- Work on foreign engineering contracts abroad (so I can travel more)
- Save up money so I can travel to other places when not working
- Find the one (or as close as I can get to her), have a family if it seems appropriate
- Help others, volunteering projects etc
- Die before I get super old

Well those are most of my ideas, not that I’d necessarily want them to happen in that order 1 month ago

Illustration/Graphic Design and Cake decorating are my two top picks. I am tired and done obsessing over what is the best. No career will be perfect, there will always be challenges and road blocks. The careers I would like may not be perfect or sure things but neither are they unrealistic. I can make them work for me.

This spring I will be taking cake decorating classes and would like to spend a few months building up a portfolio. This fall I will be attending Graphic design school that has a focus on illustration. We will see where it goes from there. 1 month ago

...because I don’t think I need to do it. As things in my life evolve, what I want to do will evolve. Really, what I want to do is ensure that I am living life to the fullest. What I choose to do for work in order to make that happen is secondary. So let’s begin now! 1 month ago

“If you’re good at something, never do it for free.”

Trying to stick to that, haha. I’m open to whatever else in my life changing forever, but I need that financial stability as a foundation. 1 month ago

Applied at university but am now kind of regretting it as I want to get a certain job that I think will drain me too much to study, even part time. If I get in we’ll see, but I’m worried about my potential performance and dedication. It was at an all time HIGH before but now it’s faltering. Sigh. 1 month ago

I need to finish these college applications. I’m only applying to four schools, but they’re very selective, so my essays have to be good :) I love to learn and I think I’ll like the independence.

I will finish (and submit!) these applications sometime in the next week…and then I’ll sit on my hands and wait till admission notification in April. Why is it so far away??

Plans for after college? No flippin’ idea. 1 month ago