stop doing drugs

i think i want to do this.
maybe it’s just the awful comedown i’m on
maybe the fact i havent been able to eat in 2 days

oh i dont know
feeling like this isnt good.

So far, so good…

I seriously don’t think I will ever be 100% drug free. I love smoking weed so much. I wish I didn’t feel like I needed it. I go to NA meetings sometimes and I even have a Welcome keychain. I’m going to have to stop for at least a year because I’m on probation now. It will be really hard. And it’s not even like it’s crack! it’s fucking marijuana, and I am very, very addicted.

I cant stop.
They ruin me.
I’m so happy when i’m doing them, and then when i’m not life is so over whelming alls i can think of is murdering myself, but i know how it feels to loose someone to suicide, and i wouldnt be able to do that to people.

I wonder if when addicts are off the drugs, if they really feel better?
but i dont think i will.
I dont think there is any hope either.

where’s my life?

i feel low and self guilty everytime i smoke … yet i cant quit ..

I won’t do it. It’s not who I am anymore. I’m better and stronger & I’ve got someone I care for. I don’t want to lose her.

i just drink now i gave up weed and crystalmeth

its killing me mentally.

well, still smoking, but now i say no to coke without a second thought.