Live life with joie de vivre

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming “WOO HOO what a ride!”

None of us get out alive!

WOO HOO! Why are we taking all of this so seriously??

Finally, a decent photo _{if you want a job doing properly etc. etc…}

Spitting image, I say!

fireworks celebration since my last celebration in Montana in the 90’s for the 4th of July. That time we were sitting in a park in Laurel, Montana and charred cardboard was falling on us…it was wonderful! My sons still remember that 4th of July!

Tonight I was sitting on my deck, alone and yet not lonely…it was beautiful! Fireworks filling the air all around me..yet no cardboard, the best yet!

Secretely, the 4th of July has always been my favorite holiday.

I believe in visualization…next year at this time this will be my wilderness home(instead of renting), my friends and family will come for a barbecue and the fireworks show! I may not live here full time in the future but today I know why I am in the wilderness…to connect with what is important in our lives. Things we forget living in the city…

I may not be rich but I am blessed!

for future reference to cheer me up! My darling Cuth, le plus beau chat du monde, next to Big Bad Tig, on the shelf above the radiator. The difference in size is not entirely due to perspective ;)

After 24 hours of nailbiting tension, ex-best friend D has just accepted my FB request! Supexiting!

_{am happy}

The long-awaited school reunion took place this evening, in a restaurant on Cavendish Square. I have to say it was an interesting evening. There were only a couple of people there who I’d classify as former friends, but fortunately I managed to sit with them so we were able to catch up on things.

One of them, V, turned out to be rather a hard-nosed, slightly impatient no-nonsense type, which she sort of was at school but more so. The other was M, who was in the same brainy clique as me but I have to be honest, we never liked each other very much. We managed an amicable conversation this evening and she’s packed in being a lawyer and is now working for the civil service, doing good things of which I approve. I found myself enjoying talking to her about politics and she was very self-deprecating which was quite endearing.

V had been to the lunch today and dished the dirt: apparently the bossy person who organised the whole thing started making allegations that something really awful must have happened in our class, as so few of us were there. And started blaming people for not providing more photos! And moved people round half way through the meal so all the waiters got confused about who was having what.

It’s true there weren’t many from my class there this evening, and I was sad that my ex-best friend D wasn’t there, but at least it avoided bringing up the reason why she excommunicated me. D still sees a lot of ex-arch-enemy M so I suppose it’s possible I could get to see her in future. Perhaps it’s better to let sleeping dogs lie, I don’t know.

Am still reeling slightly from the weirdness of it all, but am glad that I went this evening, it was good to see people and the general atmosphere was very jolly. I think I’ll have to give some more consideration to joining Facebook.

to stop cocooning and become the beautiful butterfly I have been morphing into these past 2 years. I am really tired of being alone 95% of the time.

As an extrovert spending all of this time re-inventing myself has been extremely quiet. However, most of that is going to change.

Can’t get my goals accomplished sitting at home waiting for other like minded people to knock on my door. ;)

of my discoveries of Shalahah. To my surprise he called me back. Poor guy lived with my eccentricities for a very long time. Maybe I should just leave him alone but I thought he’d get a kick out of this. :)

telling people I am a child of Shalahah! Most don’t even know what I am talking about and those who do go “yeah so what? We always knew you were.”

Life is full of adventures! This explains mine and the best is yet to come!!! :)

just like Meredith Brooks

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me
I know but I can’t change
tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I’m an angel
underneath
innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

Chorus:
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your health, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I’m going to extremes
tomorrow I will change
and today won’t mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think you’ve got me figured out
the season’s already changing
I think it’s cool you do what you do
and don’t try to save me

Chorus

I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
when you hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numbed, I’m revived
can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way