control my anxiety.

I’ve struggled with anxiety all my life. Taken all the meds, done all the weirdo shit people do when they have anxiety attacks. I’m sick of worrying about every little thing. Ex.: I’m constantly anxiously worrying about the absence and certain demise of my perfectly healthy puppydog, even though he probably still has a few good years left in him. Another: worrying that my life is passing me by despite my young age. I don’t know why, but sometimes, I’ll just get so worked up about stuff like this. I’ll cry and hyperventillate and it just gets so out of control. Any suggestions?

... but I feel someone’s hiding something from me. It’s the kind of thing I usually feel really well, eventhough I’m usually naive.

Or maybe I’m intentionally naive. I wonder that sometimes.

And maybe, as I said, I’m just paranoid. I’ve had a very bad day again, I’m tired, angry, sad, disappointed and many other things.

But there’s this little thing I can feel that I don’t like.

I didn’t have any anxiety problems recently but I wonder if I could have fallen a bit too low with this and found the other extreme.

I’m way too calm, and I know it annoys some people. Today, I felt like I had nothing to say, and felt like I didn’t want to talk to anyone. Neither to see anyone. Even if I went to my friend Julie’s in the evening, it still didn’t feel like usual. I wasn’t talkative at all, I felt uninteresting, and uninterested.

I didn’t really feel anything. My heart was an empty box, and I was a feelingless person for a day. It can be good sometimes not to be too emotional, and it helps me a lot with my objective to stay single, for example. Also, I feel like I’m not too dependant on others, which is great. But I don’t feel the love. And it’s weird.

And while I think about it, for once I’m feeling loved, but I don’t really feel like I particularely love anyone. Sure, there are some people like Emilia or Myriam who take a lot of place in my heart, but… I just wish it was more overwhelming. That I really did feel something. It annoys me, because I know I’m such a loving boy usually! But today, I felt so empty. And I try looking stable, and showing as much love as usual, but end up just being uncomfortable. Damn, I don’t like myself sometimes. Being that calm and reasonable has a lot of advantages and I love it, but sometimes it just gets boring to not be able to show and even feel emotions.

well I usually feel fine as long as Im in my confort zone. going out usually scares me but once i push myself to do it, usually everything goes good. I want t be able to control it and take over my life and enjoy every moment, I have two boys and Im scared my anxiety wont let me enjoy them to the fullest

I NEED TO GET A GRIP ON SOME THINGS I’ve BEEN TOLD THAT I HAVE ANXIETY DISORDER AND I CONSTANTLY FEEL AS IF SOMETHING BAD IS GONNA HAPPEN. I CAN’T SLEEP FOR FEAR THAT SOMETHING MIGHT HAPPEN. I CAN’T EAT BECAUSE MY STOMACH IS IN KNOTS AND MY THUMBS ARE BLEEDING FOR NERVES HABITS I’M SO NERVES AND SCARED CONSTANTLY I NEED HELP TO CONTROL THIS I JUMP AT EVERY NOISE. I HAVE NO MONEY FOR MY MEDS AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO I AM TERRIFIED OF EVERYTHING PEOPLE LOOKING AT ME, THUNDERSTORMS, GETTING IN A WRECK, BEING FOLLOWED, AND EVEN THE WORLD ENDING. I NEED HELP I CAN’T GRIP THIS..PLEASE HELP ANY ADVICE WOULD BE GREAT.

And it’s stupid, because it’s only because of money. I’ve spent so much money since Emilia landed in Newark that I’m now a bit short and it’s stressing me big time, because I was supposed to save my money for the summer trip and some other few things.

It’s not the same big kind of anxiety that I had experienced some weeks ago, though. It’s just a little something itching in the bottom of my chest most of the time, making me feel uncomfortable.

On a sidenote, I think I have to learn something from Emilia. I’m always the one to tell people to relax, take it easy, be zen, etc… But I always end up being the one in hurrying and being stressed! And I just look at Emilia, she’s taking her time and she’s totally zen.

No.

But I am hysterically nervous!

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And do I? I don’t think so.

I’m extremely stressed and nervous. But not anxious. Kind of different. I don’t know how to explain it…

I need to figure out how to control my anxiety, because sometimes it completely takes over my life. It has caused me to make decisions out of fear on many occasions, which I regret. Perhaps that should be another goal, let go of regrets…
The main reason I want to, need to control my anxiety is for my daughter. I don’t want to transfer my issues onto her.

Like, I know something’s not right. And it makes me feel quite uncomfortable. But I can’t exactly say what.