Win his heart

im young, a bit immature and sometimes even a little reckless. so me being head over heels for this guy is..well, kinda serious yo =) from being around all the people at school, dating at my age is like a game.in the past it was fun. but ive stopped attempting to “date” guys the way everyone in high school expects you to “date” guys. which in my opinion isn’t really even dating at all. i don’t have time for worrying about my reputation, or worrying about trying to measure up to some boys crumby standards. the best thing i can offer right now is just friendship. i’ve come to find that “falling in love” hurts more then anything, and though i would only say i’ve been that far once maybe even possibly twice in my lifetime ive also found that the only way to fall in love, is to FALL. in other words,you take risks. you find yourself. but you have to try to still live. i mean really live. changing shouldn’t be an option. that should be all it takes to “win his heart” as cliche as that may sound. if not then he’s not worth the time. right?

“walking the streets with you & your worn out jeans. i cant help thinking ‘This is how it ought to be’”

So i was dating this guy for eight months and then he dumps me. i asked him why he said that he doesn’t feel like he’s in love with me. But still loves me. He also said that during that past month i got mad at him too easily and i did and i blame myself for pushing him away. Also i blamed him of liking this girl but he told me he didn’t i didn’t believe him because they talked so much and it became that he talked to her more then me. But he yelled at my friend and his friends saying that he doesn’t and that she’s ugly and that she’s a good friend. but i am not sure if thats true.
so he sometimes calls me and when he does it’s “homework” and then he tries to get my attention sometimes but like it isn’t always like that. But we have six period together and thats when everything seems like it’ll be okay. we talk flirt and talk about the old time and laugh you know like any other couple would. but then after that period ends it seems like a battle again trying to win him back. I’ve asked him if he still cares about me and he said yes. and if he still loves me and he said yes. but he also said hes sorta have moved on but we’ve only been broken up for three weeks. how do you move on quickly? when you been in love with someone for 8 months. he said he went to bed head over heels for me and then woke up the next day and didn’t know what he wanted. He said he doesn’t know if he still wants to be with me but doesn’t want to loose me for good. but he calls me sometimes just to say hi. and then when he went to Cali for soccer he wanted the candy pez and he saw the iron man one and he was gonna get it and then he saw the hello kitty one and it reminded him of me (because i love hello kitty) and he got it at first he wasn’t gonna give it to me but then he gave it to me.
so i am confuse. like does he still want me? or does he want me out of his life for good.
my friends said that i should just ignore and stop talking to him and maybe that he’ll realize that he still loves me. Or is he falling for this girl?

Every girl has felt that way about a guy. When you just cant see anything you dont absolutely adore about a man. You just wish and dream that one day, the man will feel the same us. Natural and true. And if not, we hope to find a man we feel the same way about, who dreams about us.

I’ve done it. I am so happy. Its been so long since I’ve felt this feeling of happiness and love. We’re together now and he’s simply amazing; everything i could ask for in a guy. Wow, I’m head over heels.

mhmmm Je l’aime.

my friends gave me til today to get over him. it’s hard. i feel like i’m moving in the right direction, but then again i haven’t seen him for like a week. i bet when i see him next i’ll fall right back to where i was.

known him for 11 years…always had a thing for him, but just admitted it to myself and to my best friend. now that ive actually realized it, i’ve fallen pretty hard. he has a thing for another girl, who is just playing him and he knows it. maybe he’ll see who really cares someday, i can wait

he loves me…he loves me not…he loves me…he loves me not…. hmm. which will it be today? he can’t make up his mind. he’s a flake, but he’ll grow up eventually right? i’m just scared that i won’t ever be able to let him go. :( i love him.

Ahh it was not ment to be, at least not for now..

And I’ve really fallen for him (in a fifth grade crush kind of way) He’ll be home for summer soon and we can only see what will happen.

his heart…so I guess its time to retire this goal