treat myself with LOVE and respect

I am always giving my love away and respecting the way others feel but who the hell actually gives me the love and respect that I give.

I am trying so very hard to turn my life around. Each day it seems hard. I focus on all the wrong stuff. What I am going thru, what others are trying to do to me, What I am not doing, all the pain.

I’m trying to heal but I just don’t see it happening..

I’m constantly going back and forth over things in my mind…sort of tormenting myself…

How do I get over this so that I can begin to treat myself with Love and Respect?

I need to watch where I’m going and take better care. I am so clumsy!

Ive made a resolution that im not such a bad person , and that if i can forgive other peoples mistakes then why on earth cant i forgive my own . Im going to write down , draw , think or muse a positive sentiment about myself every day and stop putting myself in situations which only undermine all the good work im doing .

Kind of on track, everything was going well… cept that I did something tonight that doesn’t show a lot of love/respect for myself.
Had a talk with Sandy later on and feel a lot better for it, I am glad that there is someone in the flat who has the same views regarding God as I do, it’s great.
We can keep each other on track :)

This arvo I got my cards read, at first I thought that the woman was talking shit cause she said that I should “stick with it” and that it was about a relationship, I had been thinking WHAT?! I’m meant to stick with it? and there’s more that I can get from it? What a load of shit, I know that it isn’t a good situation for me to be in at all and if I try getting more out of it I’m going to end up getting hurt.
Jess, love, said that the relationship = ME and ya know that? that makes plenty of sense, I really do have to work on how things are going with me…
I feel so much better about things <3

I found the johari window link I had posted on livejournal and read what my friends had thought about me, it put a few things in prespective.
“shrug” I thought I had worked out all the feelings I had about not being loved/lovable and crap but I guess I haven’t and I really need to treat myself better