stop thinking about it

It’s only frustrating and frustrating and awful and bad and a waste of time. its why you cant have what you want.

this goal was delicate.

this reminds me of what i sould not think about.

now that i find another goal for every day life,

ill be able to stop thinking about it.

because…im so busy!!!

no progress…seems so.

i decided to be alone in my room for a while.

dont feel like going out now.

watching dvds, reading books and doing internet.

planning not to waste my time. hopefully.

in fact, i keep on thinking about it yet.

failing all the time.

but the touch has been changing.

thats absolutely important.

...seems so.

recently i kept on failing this goal.

actually i keep on thinking about it over a year, every day.

but slightly i found myself is being free soon.

i dont know why. but my heart becomes lighter than before.

there comes something around the corner…i feel so.

lets forget.

forget.

take it away from me.

see the other side of everyday life.

its simply because i have stress.

i know.

im not fulfilled.

thats why i eat too much at home and want to feel ‘enough.’

it doesnt mean anything to stop thinking about it.

i have to be fulfilled by other.

otherwise, i cant stop eating.

.....gosh! ive got 3kg!

it seems that it takes more time to forget.

‘do what i can do. thats all i can do.’

yes, i will…

i heard a name i dont want to today.

my heart was pumping at that time.

thats why im so sad now…

is this a receding or a chance to go forward?

i cant say anything about it.

i jusd do what i decided to do to achieve goals…

im so happy because surely ill finish this soon.

using 43 things and ta-da lists,

my days has been changing.

i did small but neccesary things and it makes me busy.

even ive started to think other new goals.

yes, im almost there!