develop a plan to channel and focus my abundance of physical, sensual, intellectual and emotional energy

suddenly i realise this is it!
yeah.
[and somebody is reading my mind: now i see it is possible to blog under given up goals.]

for now i’m focused at basic stuff. now it is time to get a habit to prepare my meals, to get out of the house, to do things for myself. to nurture my body and my soul. i wasn’t aware how ascetic my life was and i don’t want to be an ascet. (sp?)

i was obsessed with my goals on unhealthy way, i believed that if i could do/have that, i would be saved. receipt for disaster!
such as:
if i could live in clean and tidy home i would be saner!if i were fit i would be satisfied with myself!
etc. etc.

now i know i am saved already.
only thing i need is to have fun.
our life is only through us alive. (my cousin BSG.)

so now i obsess but not dwelve over food and meditation and it is a good place to start. i hope to build time for excercise and music. but if i need to invest more time to food until i build this habit, it is worth it!

from personal development site – article
this is so comforting!

“Creating is not an energy-neutral state: it is a high energy state, with, at its healthiest, enthusiasm and not anxiety driving its engine.”
Eric Maisel, PhD

an intresting interwiew with K.Christian
after 7 months i’m stil decluttering, it’s better but i can’t keep decluttering high priority any more.
and i neglected my music study altogether.

now i put all my hopes into his book “your own worst enemy” i ordered

Im in the process of rediscovering and cultivating my sexual energy and also want my partner to be part of that, and am also able to control my energies more effectively now especially my emotional energy. When the emotions are not there, i seem to be more focused on my intellectual energy. Its quite interesting

I feel the channelling of the physical/sensual/intellectual and emotional energy is occuring

OK, a plan (sort of)
1. declutter and let the light shine
2. start regularily playing organ and pass anual exam ASAP – that is also a way of expressing creativity
i see now…al that unfinished projects – i let them block my energy with that attitude “first finish this, and then have right to start that” – no, “better” yet: i use them as an excuse for not starting AND not finishing anything. some things are rolling on their own, but some things i need to set in motion!

first before setting any plan, i need to acknowledge that i in deed have abundance of energy already.

then, recognise i need no formal plan. deeply inside i know the plan: it is written in my heart. to fulfill my secret wishes… and i know what they are… that is the plan!

One of the redeeming things about being an athlete is to redefine what is humanly possible.
- Lance Armstrong

The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let love come in. Love is the only rational act.
- Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie

i’m more in intellectual energy currently but i would like to effortlesly switch between different activities/energies

I’m so tired…

i actually dared to start write My Lifelong Passion list!