be the person I was before

I know I can, and I am getting there.
I want to be a confident, brave person who isn’t shy.
I used to say what I want, when I wanted. I used to talk to people with no problem, I never had a problem with shyness. The only thing that lead me to where I am now was being too sensitve. As soon as someone would insult me, I’d take it to heart, and that’s why I’ve become like this. I won’t make that mistake agian.
I’m getting alot better. =)

Who am I kidding? I’m never going to be the me I was before. I don’t laugh. I care about stupid things. And there’s no one beside me telling me that I can. All I get are these snotty comments, “You’re not the same…” “What happened to you?” ...

I want to be that girl SO bad, but can I?

I’m questioning everything I’ve ever done. Why did this have to happen? Can’t I go back to the way things were? How do I find myself again?

I feel SO empty and it’s no ones fault… but my own.

Its hard not to be this “person” if that’s even what you can call me. I feel so fake. I am not the person who I was. I want to know what happened to her. Things would be so much different, there would be no worries, just a beautiful life. I miss the days I had the effort that was there and the neverending joy. I want to stop living this lie. I want to be free and find a purpose. I want to be baggage free.