make out vigorously with any random person

I think I’ll give up on this goal…...for now anyway. When the hell did other people come into this goal? I was the one who made it up…..and now i see that someone has already accomplished this goal. Now, that makes me feel like a hermet….an ugly hermet.

It was great… i was in a club with some friends and on my way back from the bathroom i found this guy (he was so hot!) and we just started dancing.. and one thing led to another and we just started makin out..
It was so sexy!

I was sitting next to this hot-ass sexi guy on the train and waited til the last minute to talk to him. I didn’t think about this goal, until after he left. He was so hot and he was my age (cuz I asked). And I even had him say “hi” to my mom. I should of gotten his myspace, but I didn’t think about it. I made myself a cacoon next to him with my sweater and read my book. He would of been the perfect candidate to fullfill this goal. Hooowever, now that I think about it- I probably would of never done it anway. Wut I lack is confidence….I would probably think that he’s too hot for me and that he’s not my type. I’m too insecure for this goal, so I’m trying to figure out why I even have it.

More than a few guys hit on me and I didn’t even think about it…...oh well. Besides, I was with my mother and aunt most of the time and that would of been akward. Since this goal was meant to be oficially accomplished during the cruise, now I’m deciding whether or not I should keep this goal.

Aww….....they dont have internet on the cruise, I think. I dont know, we’ll see. I think they do though. Anyway, wut if I chicken out? I was already to self-conscious to go on that date with Jeremiah. I doubt that I’ll have the confidence to kiss some random guy. But then, I have always been unpredictable and full of surprises, even to myself. My feelings change quickly, so there’s a good chance that there will be a moment in which my confidence is on high and then…..it’ll happen. LOL…now I can’t wait. The cruise is 3 weeks from now, I’ll probably would of lost 5 pounds by then. So, I would be at the weight I was when I went on the cruise last year. But this year I have bigger boobs and I’m taller. So, I must be waaaay more attractive! OH and I’ll be dying my hair. So, i’ll most likely be the sexiest bitch there! Yay!.....confidence is rising!

July 7th, I can’t wait!

Or how about I make out with Jelani or Kadeem, thats random enough, even though I know them. I’ve only danced with them, its not like I’ve ever given any of them the idea that I like them.

I need a volunteer please :D…....never mind I’ll just until I go on my cruise, so I won’t have to see him again and it’ll be a memory I’ll have about this specific cruise – I’ve been on 2 already, now my mom wants to go every year…. Wut happened to Disney World! :(

I’m thinking sometime during the summer.Maybe during the cruise??.........which reminds me of some Hot Guy who had asked me out on my last cruise(He was way too old for me!)LMAO…........I’m so bad