I’m really putting effort into espeacilly since this person means the most to me I’ll do anything for them I will denifnetly acheive impacting your life I love you soo damnnn much Bestest friend for ever! On my road to successfully impacting her life love u estest frieds=(: 3 years ago
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She’s sad about her dog with cancer maybe I can help her this time!! Finally got an opernunity to impact her life!! I just want her to know she’s the most amazing person in the world she means the world to me and I would be devisated if I lost her! THE IMPACTING BEGINS NOW!!!! Love you to death bestest friend in the whole world!!!!! 3 years ago
She has doen everything for me I’ve been having a really sucky life lately and she changed my life when I was depressed she was there to show me love when I had no love she was the one to be there when I was under preassur I jsut want to show her that she;s not the only one to show impact I want to impact her life in return she’s just my bestest friend in the whole world and I just want to sho her how much I truely care. 3 years ago
that is not to say, that i do not wish to continue to make positive impacts on peoples lives. that would be much better than a negative impact that is for sure!
but the main reason i decided to tick this one off its because of one hell of a speech emily gave me.
i had a tough week this week. a really tough week. and under the pressure i cracked. while on the phone to emily she asked me how to do a question for human biology and when the answer didnt come to my head straight away i just lost it. not crying but stress. i started to babble about everything.
i have been so worried that under the stress of everything that has been happening for last few months that i wasnt being there for those that love and need me. i was afraid that i was going to fail school because i keep missing school.
and after i had finished she just said stop.
and she pointed out to me what i had done for her.
how when she moved to perth and didnt know anyone i was the mother hen that took her under my wing. how i encouraged her to try and achieve her dreams for acting (which she is achieving :D) and the way i have never missed an urgent call. not even at 3am. and how i try my hardest to be there for her… and you know, hearing her say the things i have done and hearing her say she appreciates it was… wow. it made ME so appreciative that she realised i put in alot of effort. i could not stop thanking her.
the only thing i dont like about ticking this goal off is it sounds as though i do not want to do it again. but at the moment. i feel as though i have achieved it. and i know this will reopen… just a matter of when :P 6 years ago
if i can tick this off.
today something amazing happened.
i had someone say the most wonderful things to me.
matt told me he was glad he had met me and that i had changed him forever and that he was glad i was there when he needed me… i got this warm fuzzy feeling… but not straight away… it was like i went into shock first.
i dont know if i can tick this off. 6 years ago
have had a few reminders of ash today…
...feeling low… its hard to know that someone that loved you just… stopped. makes you wonder , you know? what changed? did i? was it a bad change? did i do something wrong?
i tried. i really did.
but the problem is, i gave her so much of myself… i feel i dont have any left for myself. i have no energy! and i keep trying to be there for other people, giving them love and hope and… i am starting to feel i needa be selfish for just a little while and keep some for myself… but i cant. i cant do that, its not fair to deprive others of what i have always given… is it?
the other thought that keeps plaguing me is… DID i make an positive impact on her? (thus under this goal) because i look at the person who she is now and… the fact i influenced her life and this is how she is now… does not make me feel as though it WAS positive… and as though maybe it would have all been better if i HAD just left her alone that day…
and i want to be able to go running to someone when i feel like this and know that i can cry with them and they wont judge me and that they actually give a shit. i wanna know that they WILL be there for me… and i want some one to give ME love and hope.
and i am so incredibly selfish! 6 years ago
i travelled home with a girl from school today. we left school about 5pm (due to music) and it was already getting dark and cold. i didnt really know the girl too well at the beginning of the trip but we are close now!
we talked for ages waiting for the bus, it got reaaally cold so i gave her my jumper and she was hungry so i bought her dinner on the way home. :D and a choccie lol.
i just feel really good because i know that i let a girl go home (where i know she has troubles) with a warm jumper and without a hungry stomache! we swapped numbers and once our journeys went separate ways to go home, we spent the rest of the trip messaging each other!!!
i feel all happy now… she still has my jumper lol… why do i get the feeling this isnt only a positive impact on someone elses life? to me i already feel like i have gained a very valuable friend :D 6 years ago
this achieved and that i have made a positive impact on their lives however i dont feel i have changed their lives. not sure. and i am not sure how to measure whether or not this goal is acheived. what may be a positive change tomorrow could be a negative change next week.
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I would like to inspire someone. I want to help facilitate a change for somebody. I want to be meaningful. 6 years ago
I have realized that i do too much making friends with people i know i want enjoy being around/arent worth being around. I need to not only start making friends who are worth it, but be worth being a friend to. 8 years ago