sorrow

with your own hands 2 months ago

he didn’t answer and he won’t, i sent him another 2 sms…and goodbye..i am deepley felt with disappointment, this is the 3rd guy i lose. :( 3 months ago

i don’t obey god, even he gave me everything, i feel so guilty and bad, maybe this is why people treat me like shit, i don’t obey god and he gives me, and i give to people and they hate me. 3 months ago

i created facebook accounts to be in check with family, the uncle i have been looking for to meet with, has cancer and is dying, i have few cousins who just don’t care enough, and a couple of friends one of them, who stopped talking to me after trhe scene made. i have created a facebook account for another guy, the one i have crush on, and he doesn’t reply at all. i don’t know, i am trying, i tried to explain to him how much i cared, and today i decided to delete my facebook accounts for good. really really no more. 3 months ago

with an old friend, and i guess i brke my rules only for him, made out, and then afterwards, he stopped replying to my sms and emails. don’t you call this to be ultimate sorrow, to be hated by everytbody regarldess of whatever you do. 3 months ago

and no one entered our house, our neighbors who once maybe have liked us, just hate us now, they did odhya and gave all neighbours but excluded us, now, their son never says hello anymore. i think that’s ok too. their hellos has never been requested and has never been asked to do it, and when they stop saying hello, it is their own decision, since in our religion, greeting people is sth that you do for god, so if they don’t greet us anymore, they are just not greeting god, and they will do it for themselves, however, i feel offended, and i feel sadder beyond the saddest, and i think that’s alright, no one has ever been fair to us before, and i guess no one will. Thank you god for showing me their truth. and sorrow, i guess you are my eternal friend. 3 months ago

surround all people around you with genuine love and care, and you do thing from all of your heart, but they despise you more and more, the nicer you are, the worse. People i am with in this office are technically “SUPERIFCIAL” and disgusting e3333333 3 months ago

i tore the card i bought him, and i tore the song i typed and printed out for him, and today there was a wedding in our street, i thought it was him,i felt like devastated, i ate like a mad person, i miss him in tons. i love him, maybe for now, life is not giving me a chance to be me, not giving any of my sisters a chance, we are so lonely and hurt. 3 months ago