break a bad habit

I won’t say. It’s for me to personally accomplish. It’s not the worst habit in the world, but psychologically and emotionally it can be detrimental to my relationship(s), current and future. So, if I really want true happiness – I will keep myself in check and break this habit for good!

I smoke. I smoke natural additive-free tobacco and I roll my own ciarettes. I have never smoked more than ten cigarettes a day, and never before noon. In fact the last several years I don’t smoke until after 5 pm.. I don’t like it anymore and every morning I am resolved, then every evening I light up. I have read everything on the subject and have quit many times, once for two years.Hearing other people’s personal stories seem to help the most, and not even success stories.

I wont mention the bad habit, but it’s something that I need to break for the sheer importance of my mental well-being. I’ll be check back every so often with updates on how I’m doing.

But this isn’t the time, it seems. Too many other issues right now to focus on this. I’ll come back to it.

That is a nasty habit!

It’s been months since I have succumbed to my bad habit. It is getting easier to fight it but I still don’t think I’m quite ready to click the ‘I’ve done this’ button yet. Putting pen to paper to really outline what my habit was and why I wanted to change it seemed to help. Telling one trusted friend about it also helped too. I’m treating myself to little presents along the way. Wish me luck. I hope I can officialy declare myself free from this habit sometime this year.

Even if I don’t accomplish this in the 30 days, at least I might make some progress. I am not going to admit defeat, not this early!

I need to find something else to do to distract myself or substitute. I like making lists. I wonder if I pull out a notebook and either make a mini-journal entry or write some sort of list down if it would be enough to change the way I’m thinking or release the stress. Something to try, at any rate – it can’t hurt.

Apparently I get more comfort from my bad habit than I realized; I’m having a hard time with the Virginia Tech shootings and can’t really focus on breaking the habit. Or more to the point, it doesn’t seem to be working right now.

I’m going to get a couple of rolls of quarters, and a jar. Every day I don’t do this habit, I put a quarter in the jar. Every day I do it, I take a quarter out. When I finish a roll of quarters, I get to buy myself flowers, or something else fun.

Hope this helps.

I don’t want to get too specific on this habit, as it is sort of stupid and embarrassing. But it is something I want to end, and I need to start somewhere.

Every day I can keep myself from doing this is a victory.