i think this would be far easier if I learned how to not let other people’s comment affect me. it someone calls me fat i want to be able to brush it off and forget about it, not remember it every time i feel a little bad about myself. right now i need assurance from other people and i shouldn’t. sigh. this will happen one day and i’ll feel confident for more than twenty minutes. 14 months ago

I’m focusing more on loving what I’ve got instead of trying to change it. I want to be happy and healthy, not skinny, and basically just want an overall positive view of my body. I’ve lost weight recently so I’m smaller than I used to be and I generally have more good days than bad so I’m doing alright. I’ve also noticed clothes I haven’t worn in a while are now kinda baggy on me (which makes me really happy even though I guess it shouldn’t, but shrug) so I know I’m healthier than I was and I probably look better but I just have to work on seeing that for myself now. I’ll get there, it just might take some time. 15 months ago