be a more positive person

I often find myself not being as optimistic as would like. I often go into situations and focus on the negatives instead of the positives. I need to readjust my thinking to focus on the good points of every situation. Anxiety has always been a tough thing for me to overcome, but I figure that people can change by making cetain types of thinking a habit. I think I can do it, but it may take a little bit of time. See, right there, a little bit of optimism is shinning through.

I’ve decided to be more positive. I decided to turn to God for help and just rely on the universe and accept that everything happens for a reason. At this moment, I am exactly where I need to be to serve the universe. It has definitely helped! I love my life and couldn’t be happier… ok I could be happier, but where I am now is a definite improvement from where I once was…

I used to think I was a realist…now I wonder if I am just a bitter cynic…

How can one be more positive when the Entire World is Crumbling Around Us?? Thank you for listening. {I may not be positive, but I’m always polite.}

And perhaps I am more positive than I thought. I do try and see both sides of the arguement – acutally it’s an almost complusive habit and I’m not sure if it comes from trying to defuse the situation or out of oure pig iron. Yeah, I can be really annoying.

I’ve decided this year to try and develope a more serious work ethic. By this I mean working like I’m working for myself and the effort I put in directly benefits me. I will try not to engage too much in slagging off my superiors and will also try to keep distain to a minimum. I’m also going to try to be less self-critical and leave the stresses of work at work rather than letting them keep me awake at night.

Yesterday I had a fair bit of not brilliant feedback about me and generally there was stress because it is coming upto to christmas and busy with no support or understanding from higher-ups equals horrible nagging feeling that it’s time to move to the carribean.

Yesterday I didn’t care. I don’t know if it was apathy or just a odd calm confidence that I’ve done the best I can and people can be very unreasonble as well as passing on all their stressy issues. I sort of accepted it.

Today I am back to normal and feeling attacked and defensive and not particularly good at my job.

I wonder what changed between yesterday and today. Perhaps it’s hormonal?

Should probably start by not being so cynical and giving people – including the tax man – the benefit of the doubt.