learn to live

Well, I never take risks. So, I’d like to learn to live and love life.

I want to accept every opportunity, try everything, taste everything, ATTEMPT everything. I don’t want to accept limitations and I want to make NO excuses! I want to one day have NO REGRETS. The only things I currently regret are the things I have not done…

I dont know why but i’m just not happy. I have alot to be happy about but i dont feel it. I really dont like where i am in life THE ARMY i feel trapped.

i sometimes feel that life is hard..why do people have to feel the have to get that job..have more money..have all these experiences..but something has helped.. i read a book and it told me that everyone has both a unique mission and something that is everybody’s mission..but one of those missions was to make the world a better place..and it made me smile..because maybe if all you do everyday is maybe try to make someone laugh but it makes someones world a better place..than you have achieved to fulfill something in life..and i think that is more than enough..

No matter how hard the days are.. Everything happens for a reason. Get the best out of each day. Only look for the good in life.

Funk

–noun
1. cowering fear; state of great fright or terror.

I think I might be afraid of pure hapiness, or maybe I’m just lazy. I don’t know. I’m still figuring it out. I want so much, but I do too little to actually acheive my goals. Actually that’s untrue; to acheive goals, you must ultimately HAVE goals. I think I am goal-less. If I set some goals for myself then maybe I’d come around and start to live my life the way I feel it should be.

I know it is in my power and my control to be the person that I want to be, but I just can’t seem to find that spark to get me going. To put that good foot forward and make the necessary changes that I need to make. I don’t know why I seem to think that I can’t do it alone. I can, but I’ve always needed a little bit of an push from someone else. Everything I’ve ever tried to do myself, by myself has been looked down on or frowned upon, so I stopped doing what I felt was right and let the decisions of other people guide my ways. Maybe that’s it… Maybe I’m just afraid that what I do will be looked down at, and so will I for it.

I don’t want to live in fear of screwing something up so much that it will negatively influence the rest of my life. If I live with that fear, then I’m not going to be able to move on, and I’ll never learn from my mistakes… because if I don’t do anything, then I wont do anything wrong, or right. I need to just go for it, I need to find my passions and find my love and take them to another level, one that has no restrictions and will in turn, show me that I have truly learned to live.

This may just be a bunch of incoherant babble… but atleast I’m getting it out, I’m throwing it out there, I’m not letting it nest…

For now, I’m going to try… I’m going to do what I feel is right without worrying how it will be perceived.

To whoever is reading this, don’t think I mean that I’m going around murdering people when I say the things I’ve done have been looked down upon, as I have never murdered anyone, nor do I plan on it.

Best of wishes to those who are finding their place and learning how to live, I’ll take best wishes from you too!

Cheers

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my life doesnt change. Every day I go to work, come home, make dinner, eat, watch tv, and go to sleep. I know that I want to do something with my life, but what that is I have no idea. Each day I do what’s easy, and not whats me. But i’m not sure what is me..
I want to learn to live.

Through Dan, I am learning more about myself. Lately, I’ve been telling myself that I love my life, I dont reagret anything that has happened so far. Even though, when I was down, I told my self that I live with regrets. I wouldn’t be the person that I am if I didn’t go through the things I’ve gone through.

I am living life everyday. I love my boyfriend, he reminded me how much potential a person can have. I am so lucky with him.

i added this to my list because i am at a point in my life where i realize that i do not want to look back and say where has all the time gone