Last month I finally made the move and went back to therapy. One of the things I’m working on is my self-image – trying to change my behavior from always picking out the negative bad things about myself me and focus on the good things. Thus this goal. Today when we were talking about it, my therapist mentioned being my own cheerleader, so I told her how people often comment about my cheerleading tendencies on 43T. She couldn’t have used a better way to express what I need to do, it really struck a chord with me. So from now on I am going to be my own best cheerleader. No more Ms. Self-Doubt. And I’m counting on all of you to remind me when I slip (which I won’t).

GO ME!!!

Sometimes I think I know myself so well. But then, out of the blue, I will just do something that when other people do it, I can’t stand them. Do I need to figure myself out or am I just a hypocrite?

The summer theatre program is all finished, and I’m sorely missing the theatre. I’m also really dissatisfied with my current “real” job. I feel like I’m going nowhere.

Right now I’m also going through Disney withdrawl. I REALLY want to go back to work for them. Sigh.

I have a part-time job that I love, with a second part-time job starting in two weeks. I volunteer at a local theatre and I’m volunteering for the Fringe festival this upcoming week. I’ve also been invited to learn to play the mellophone and join a drum and bugle corps. I have a treatment for a play I want to write, and I’ve got a mountain of cleaning to do.

I’ve always been a busy person, but I don’t know why I keep piling it on. Thing is, I’m really enjoying everything I’m doing right now.

Don’t know why I wrote all that… it just feels better getting it out.

My life did not become a mess overnight, I cannot expect to clean it up overnight.

i am finally working on this, thank GOD!! it took so long for my happiness to become my own priority. mostly because it had to get really serious before i paid it much attention. i’m taking the steps i need to take in order to ensure that things get better for me.. and i am finally learning to love and appreciate myself the way i truly should. i feel like i got this for a while, but once life got busy again, i went to the backburner. i’m discovering now, however, that if i’m not there for me, the rest of this life thing won’t work. so, its taking a lot of praying and ‘one day at a time’ steps.. but they are finally heading in the right direction!

“It was easier for me to start the women’s movement than change my own personal life.”

(from quirkyalone.net)

Quirkyalones are people who enjoy being single (but are not opposed to being in a relationship) and prefer being single to dating for the sake of being in a relationship.

Quirkyalone is not anti-love. It is pro-love. It is not anti-dating. It is anti-compulsory dating. We tend to be romantics. We prefer to be single rather than settle. In fact, the core of quirkyalone is the inability to settle. We spend a significant chunk of our lives single because we hold relationships to a high standard.

Are quirkyalones loners? Not necessarily. Quirkyalones often value friendship very highly. We’re often very social people. But we do value occasional solitude. Quirkyalones are often creative and need time alone to allow thoughts to fully form.

How quirkyalone am I?:

Your score was 98. Very quirkyalone:

Relatives may give you quizzical looks, and so may friends, but you know in your heart of hearts that you are following your inner voice. Though you may not be romancing a single person, you are romancing the world. Celebrate your freedom on National Quirkyalone Day, February 14th!

How quirkyalone are you?

“The problem is never how to get new, innovative thoughts into your mind, but how to get old ones out.”

Dee Hock, founder and former CEO of the VISA credit card association

Scorpio

Your vision for the future is sharper than ever, which might be causing you to feel antsy about how you’re going to get to the next stop on your journey. Don’t worry about having (or lacking) the energy or inspiration you need to move forward—right now, you’ve got enough of what you need to do whatever you need to do. As long as you bring all your conviction to whatever you’re doing, you will be fine. Bravado counts, so don’t be shy about showing your confidence to others.