5 Years ago, I wrote the post below.
I was gobsmacked to read it again 5 years on (today),
to discover that this post is still relevant.
Was I writing down future warning, or is it just a lesson repeating itself?
This original post was intended for my mum’s mother, but now as I read it, this post is intended for my dad’s mother.
Cancer, oh how you show your face multiple times.
You can try all you want, but my family is STRONG.
My other grandmother was diagnosed with cancer late 2013.
It shook the family and created A LOT of drama within the ranks, however, I for one, remained positive- and always kept the candle lit for a full recovery.
From here, only time will tell.
I have faith that everything will be okay.
I have learnt how to have faith,
It took me a while, but I got there in the end.
Its amazing how one blog entry- is the same as holding a mirror up to show a reflection. Just amazing. 10 months ago
Please let me know my life will be Ok,as well as my relationships 12 months ago
I just want to be a better dad, husband, son, and person. Stop the deceptions and get out of debt and just be happy with what I have instead of always wanting more, I have a great wife, kids who love me, and my health-I should be happier, but I am mad at myself for a lot of past errors and cant seem to forgive myself. but i will try harder 2 years ago
At this point my feelings are split, I really want to trust God and know that everything will be okay but it’s hard. I try my best and when i do, i fail. I want to leave a mark on this world. I want to do the impossible. I know that in the future I will be someone great, but right now im confused on how i will get there. The past two years of high school honestly, i really didnt put my best forth but thats in the past right? i just can’t seem to get past it though. But from this day forth i dont care how much sleep i get through the week I am going to work my ass off and get the best out of these last two years of high school and move on to Howard University or FAMU rather it’s nursing,fashion merchandising,business,or communications I’m gonna make it to the top somehow, and make a difference in this earth. there are so many things that i love in life but i feel if i pursue those things ill disappoint my family and greatest of all fail. right now i cant fail at anything else in life i have to put on my big girl panties and face my future, work hard, and let God guide me to where he wants me to be. ( hopefully it will be to one of these places or to a very rich husband. ) 3 years ago
- i dont know if i wanna do this anymore, he’s been begging and crying not to let me leave him… I’ve been lied to too many times and i cant let it go what he done to me, He keeps giving me reasons not to trust him anymore, What do i do, I wish he would be more open about it. I wish i could get really mad at him like how he gets mad at me, when he hears stuff about me, which arent even true… I never cheated on him… We’ve been together for almost 5 years and i think its time that we let eachother go since he’s always going behind my back, I always tell him If your not happy just tell me.. i’ll leave… All he says was sorry and thats not enough i hate when he hides things from me, I know not to trust him anymore, I feel so hurt still in my heart, For what he’s been saying to other girls. He doesnt know how it makes me feel when he writes those kind of stuff I never do that to people and I cant believe he did that to me, If i’m not happy in my relationship should i just leave him? Im so in love with him though, I cant see myself without him, I have no where else to live, no home … my parents are seperated and have their own worlds..in different cities and im so far away…. my sister is going through problems with her husband. I dont know who to turn to right now. I feel like crap just thinking bout it.. Its always on my mind and im scared he might do it again, Is all this thinking worth it in the end.. is all this hurt, i feel stuck, and is it all worth it. Please lord give me strength to forgive the man i love…, the quotes i’ve been reading are these …
“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, happiness is a decision you make, and it will be worth it in the end “
promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you! – christian d. larson
Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too. 3 years ago